Despair [updated] (GxG) (#JULIANTINA)

Chapter Two

It wasn't easy to not think about Valentina. She might not remember me but she clouds my mind every fucking second.
Everything reminds me of her. Our favorite restaurant, her former University, even the smell my own perfume reminded me of her. The bedsheets, still had her scent on them.
"Fuck!"
But I'm too scared to wash them and have her scent gone but I had too. I know, weird.
I slump down on the couch, and turn some music on.
Her favorite song.
I remember her dancing to this song when we first met.
It was in a backyard party, and I saw her in middle of the crowd. Swaying her hips to the rhythm of the song. Her cleavage exposed and her sexy eyes, making me fall hard for her.
I approach her, and she grabs my hands, placing them on her hips as I sway with her. Our mouths mere inches, our breathing in sync and maybe, our feelings too.
"ARGHH!" I pull my hair.
"Stop thinking about her, stop!"
I needed closure, so I went out to look for it.

I stood in front of the gates, waiting for it to magically open. I go inside my car and turn the engine on. I was about to drive away when, *puff*, the gates open.
"Welcome back, Juliana!" One of the Carvajal's drivers smile at me, standing besides the gate.
I smile at them, rolling my window and stopping besides him, "Thank you so much!" I drove in, feeling my chest tighten.
I roll the window back up, trying to calm my breathing.
I park along the side entrance, checking to see if Eva is home to which I didn't see her car. I sigh, relieved. I get off the car, fixing my shirt and my watch.
I walk up to the steps leading to the two doors and place my finger on the button.
"Who is it?"
I clear my throat, "Ms. Valdes, Juliana Valdes."
"Oh my god!" They sounded happy, then I hear a beep and the door opens.
I see Silvina as she embraces me with a hug. It took her almost a full year to see that Valentina and I were meant for each other, so she accepted that and gave us all her support.
"It's been so long, how are you?"
I can't lie.
I look down, "Not so good, you know?" I look back up at her and see understanding in her face.
She nods, holding onto my hands, "I know, mija. Come in," she pulls me inside the house, closing the door behind me.
I look around, all the memories of the house coming in like a hurricane. When I kissed her in the sofa, and when I came back to apologize to her.
"Are you hungry? Do you want anything to drink?" Silvina asks, to which I answered, "Thank you, Silvina! I don't want to be rude, but I'm here to see Val."
She nods, "She's upstairs in her room."
Her room, where I lost my virginity to her.
I walk upstairs, thinking whether should I talk to her or not. I reach her door and knock.
No going back.
They open the door. Wait...
"Hey," a dude I've never seen before, half naked, appears.
"Uhhh?" Shit!
"Micheal! Put some clothes on, you pervert."
And she appears behind him, moving him out the way.
She sees me, "Hey you, I've seen you before..." she points at me.
I gulp down the nerves.
My chest tightens and my words get stuck in my throat.
My eyes start to burn, as well as my heart.
"Uh, yeah. The hospital," I simply say, wishing that I could have magic and give her back her memories of me.
"Oh shit, that's right. Guey, sorry for being a bitch to you. Why are you here anyways?"
Should I tell her? Would it be useless? Of course it would.
I chuckle, rubbing my neck.
"Fuck," I murmur under my breath.
"What?"
I look at her, "You're my fiancée!"
She stands still, staring at me with a weird look on her face and...

She bursts into a laugh, to which I shake my head to.
"What? I'm not gay!"
I shake my head.
"I knew it," and turn to leave.
I walk as fast as I can, but she grabs my shoulder.
"Hey, guey, wait!"
I stop. I turn around.
She looks confused.
My eyes tear up, "You don't remember?"
Clueless. She seemed clueless.
I try again, "Valentina Carvajal, I love you! I would do anything for you, don't you know that?" I grab her hands, she doesn't pull away.
And I see clueless once again.
I scoff, shaking my head.
Kiss her!
And I did.
I pushed her backwards, her back hitting the wall and I engulf her in a kiss.
She didn't pull back.
The kiss only lasted for about 10 seconds before Micheal interrupted us.
"Whoa!"
Valentina looked to be surprised, but not mad or weirded out.
I wish I was lying when I say, I saw something inside her click.
But maybe it was my imagination.

I left the house, my mind feeling troubled and my heart feeling hurt.
The closure I've gotten, she doesn't remember you...she never will.
Note to self: MOVE ON!