Call me Binali

Chapter 21 "A Not So Silent Night."

Before I start this chapter,

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Nowwww into the drama ;)

"I-I what?" I look between the two, my mind still clouded with confusion. Blake looked at me with anger practically leaking through his pores. I took a step back in shock not expecting such a reaction coming out of him.

"Explain, Binali," Blake repeated.

I looked like a fish out of the water as I struggled to find my voice, "You need to calm down. Its a mistake she's off it right now, Blake," West interjects. She fiercely comes between Blake and I, returning to her role as my protector.

"West I am not talking to you nor am I in the mood for you. You were the one who dragged her out here. Do you seriously not like me that much that you get my girlfriend to cheat on me?!" Blake yelled. I flinched, I cheated...I cheated on Blake. I-I should have never left the house oh god. I'm a cheater now?! Cheaters don't get happily ever after...cheaters get-get well they definitely don't get hot chocolate brought to them with whipped cream and mini marshmallows. If Blake isn't there to make it...who will?! At these thoughts, my lip began to quiver and my eyes watered.

"Don't blame me! Why don't you look at yourself! I'm not your problem." West retorts.

"Well every time I do have one- there you are popping your smug little face up!" Blake yells back. "I'm done talking to you! Binali!" He calls for me. I look at him from around West only to see Beck try to confront Blake again. "Get your weasel little face out of my eyesight before I paint the ground with your blood." Blake seethed. The only thing holding him back was his two friends who eyed this situation with concern.

"Whatever bro, Binali would never be with if you beat me up!" Beck spit out.

"You wanna bet?! You're lucky you can even stand after putting your filthy mouth on my girl." Blake seethes.

"Oh yeah?! Well-"

"Stop!" I yell out cutting Beck off, "Please stop. Blake, I'm sorry I didn't mean to kiss Beck. I thought he was you...so please don't be mad at me." I say as I approach him.

"Do you expect me to believe that? This is really shitty of you. Binali, I'm pissed." Blake crossed his arms and looked at me his anger wavering slightly.

"I'm sorry, Blake." Don't cry. Don't cry. Do not cry. Do not- my eyes began to work on their own accord as I started to cry. I need to control myself.
Everyone stares at me as I cry, not completely sure of what to do.

"Nali-" West starts. I look at her and run out, I just need to get out. I'll go anywhere. Anywhere but here.

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I sit hunched over on the bench of the bus stop, what a pathetic sight I am.

My mascara is smugged, there are tear streaks in my foundation, my hair is crunch and curly from a combination of alcohol, sweat, and tears.

I run my hands through my hair in frustration, West had my phone and I have no idea where I am.

I lost my boyfriend and my close friend all in one night. I looked stupid in front of my friends and Blake's. If Kara saw me now, well she would probably... I stare at the pavement watching some ants drag along a french fry. My stomach growled and my body was weary from roaming the city, "What the hell is my life? Is this my punishment for surviving? Is this my punishment!" I yell at the sky. "what else could possibly happen to me?" I bitterly laugh. "Come on! What else do you have for me?" I jump up on the bench still cursing the sky, "What?! Come on, send some rain! How about have Kara haunt me some more? Ooh maybe take away everything I freaking care about and throw it in the trash! Take some more from me! Take it!" I rant practically steaming with anger as I catch my breath.

"Binali?! I searched the city for you! Are you crazy, this is Bronx!" West yells from down the street. She runs up to me, she grabs my arm and pulls me into a hug. "I'm sorry Binali. You can come stay with me, my dorm is really nice. We can have a movie marathon or something. " West shrugs.

I let out a breath, "West I had the worst week of my life ending in the worst night of my life. What I want right now is cuddles from my boyfriend." I sniffle tearing up again.

"We can cuddle, it will be okay." West tries to comfort me.

"Its not the same!" I wail. If the night wasn't tired of me, I was tired of me.

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I laid on West's lap, I fiddled with my necklace as the movie played. Despite my tiredness, sleep was nowhere in sight.

I let out a breath, "West am I a bad person? Be honest."

"I don't think so. A few bad choices doesn't make you bad." She replies.

"I think I am though, if I made a few bad choices I wouldn't be like this," I say quietly.

"Binali come on, don't think like that. You are not a bad person okay? Bad people don't care that they're bad. Let's shake this night off. You and Blake will make up soon. And everything will be harmonious again, mmkay? Let's just go to bed, I'll let you borrow some clothes." West says as she gets up.

She brings me some clothes and I disappear into the bathroom, I feel something in the pocket of my jean. "What the hell?" I mumble as I pull out a small gift card envelope. I looked at it in confusion as I open it.

I can feel my stomach churn as I look and see the top of a polaroid sitting where a gift card would. My hands began to shake and my heart raced as I tried to muster the courage to pull out the photo.

I slid to the floor as I starred at the photo in horror, why? why am I getting punished?