catch boys by their toes

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v.
AND WHEN TIMES WERE ROUGH

the boyz; KEVIN

KEVIN,

I'm writing to you because my therapist told me it would help relieve the tension I have had over the years. He said it would benefit me if I let everything off my chest and write it down for you to read. And you're going to read this.

You ruined me. You took all the good parts of my life and made if rot. My mother, my father, even my brother's bodies torn apart, blood everyFUCKINGwhere. I couldn't even look away. Not when the police were asking me to identify which one is which.

I loathe you.

You are nothing more than a psychotic, dim-witted, disgusting man.

I want to beat the living shit out of you.

To see you bleed out like I did. I want to see you on the floor begging for me to stop hurting you. But I won't listen to your pleas. I wouldn't give a second thought about whether I should pity you. You don't deserve sympathy. Court shouldn't have given into your plead of insanity. The electric chair should have burned you.

You need to DIE.

I would be happy if I got the chance to see you take your last breathe. I would video tape it, like how you made me watch my father's death. Yet I would let people freely watch it, your murder isn't worthy enough for a paying audience.

I never cared for you.

I still don't. The thought of you petrified me and at first I thought I couldn't be anything but scared of you. Now — now it's different. Now, I adore the people around me. They gave me hope, freedom; anything and everything you wouldn't give.

Lastly, the final thing you should know:

I'm married to the love of my life and have children.

THEY. AREN'T. YOURS.

Go to hell,
(Y/N)

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(Y/N),

I'm very glad that you have written to me. It means the world to me that you have taken the time to make me a letter. I have read it.

I pleaded insanity because they think I'm not mentally stable. I am sorry that you didn't like the verdict, I don't cheer at the idea of being stuck in a padded room either.

However, (Y/N), what you wrote down is not showing signs of sanity. You don't want to kill me. That's not you. You aren't like that. Violence was never something you would commit. I always admired that about you.

This may not be a question that you are expecting to be answered. I don't know if you even think about it, but I will be honest. I still love you.

I love you more and more everyday. I miss you so much (Y/N). Please, I beg of you to come visit me. All I need is to see your face and know that I did the things I did because I love you. They were not supportive of our future. Your family didn't want us together and that's why I had to get rid of them.

You know that, right?

I love you. And I don't care if you have children, we can raise them together. I'll be the best father to them. I'll be the best partner for you.

Your husband on the other hand is dead.

With much love,
KEVIN
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(Y/N),

We regret informing you that patient 009: KEVIN, has been reported as missing from our institution. As of this very moment, authorities are searching for him. He will be found.

Please stay safe and lock all entrances and exits.

With Best Regards,
THE INSTITUTE FOR THE MENTALLY INSANE