For the last time "I don't want a mate !!!!!"

What the heart long's for...

( Taconnie's prov)
*** the next morning*****
I was laying in the bed ;contemplating weither to get out of bed or not. After last night, my head was swimming with loud thoughts. I had a horrific case of inner turmoil and it was all about Blake . He didn't come into the room last night; must of want to give me space ** smart man**

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. As I opened the door I seen it was the maid.
" Yes?" I raised an eyebrow at her.
" Umm.. Alpha Blake wishes for you to join him for breakfast, " Luna." The maid bowed her head.
Ugh what's up with theses maids and bowing the their heads at me?
" Please call me Taconnie and stop with the head bowing." I asked softly and turned around.
" So is that a yes than lu... I mean Taconnie ! " she said quickly when I shot her a little glare for about to say Luna.
" Well it's not a complete no." I said while getting dressed.

About half an hour later , I was softly walking down the stairs. Heading for the kitchen , stopping at the big wooden sliding doors when I heard blake's melodic laughter. His laugh made my heart melt like butter. Than a large knot formed inside my stomach. I could never make him laugh like that. I did the thing that I do best; I turned and ran out the front door.

It's always going to be like this, when things get hard for me I always run. I shifted into Lion as soon as feet hit the grass, taking off into the woods. Sitting alone in a tree which was a few miles from the house so I didn't alert blake's lion that I wasn't in the house.

Looking into the sky , to clear my mind is when I heard a voice.
"Taconnie." I heard Lila sigh as she climb the tree I was sitting in.
Giving her a sad look and sigh to myself .
" I know I f*** up " I said while looking at my feet that dangled from the branch We'er sitting in.
" Nah you didn't f*** up , it's just that it's hard for you to listen to what your heart wants!" Lila's comforting words felt nice.
" Is Blake mad?" I asked with a wince.
" Why would he be mad it's not like you ran out on him, oh wait you kind of did !" Lila said jokingly. I shot her a glare not finding this amusing.
" I'm serious! " I laughed and punched her in the arm.
"Ow ok ok... No he's not mad worried but not mad" I took comfort in her words.
" Better get off this branch before it breaks because will both be f***." Lila Said while starting her decent from the tree. I just laughed at her and followed behind her. The tack back to the house was long , I didn't know how I was going to face Blake. We reached the house where Jordan was waiting for us.
Lila and Jordan shared a quick kiss and hug , before Jordan turned to me.
" Blake's in his office , " he would like to have a word with you ." Jordan told me while side hugging Lila. I nodded and made to go inside the house. Lila touched my shoulder in support and gave me an encouraging look.
" He's mad is'nt he?" I asked Jordan.
He pinched his finger together symbolizing a little bit. Just. Great a pissed of alpha. I went in side the house, climb the stairs that lead to his office. I stopped at the big oak doors of his office, took a deep breath in and was about not when I heard.
" Come in Taconnie the doors open." I heard Blake voice though the doors. I step into the office and seen Blake doing paper work. Blake lifted is head; looking at me with a hard look.
" We need to talk." Blake said getting up from his chair.

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Hey guys I know, I hav'nt updated for so long I had major writers block.
This chapter is unedited ( sorry for poor grammar or spelling mistakes
Comments are welcome 😄 it helps me become a better writer. ~ bellesmist17