YOU 1 [Charli D'Amelio]

Chapter 25.

I have no words. Max's tone and dirty words make me weak, vulnerable, and confused. I have become a rabbit in a fox's trap.

"You don't have to admit it, I can tell." SHe says, her voice is so arrogant but all I can do is shake my head. Her smile grows and I back against the wall. She takes a step towards me and I back against the wall. Not again.

"Your pulse has quickened hasn't it? Your mouth is dry, you have that feeling.. down there. Don't you Charli?" Everything she is saying is true and the more she talk to me like this, the more I want her. It's a strange feeling to want someone and hate them at the same time. The attraction I feel to her is purely physical which is strange considering how opposite she is from Chase. I don't remember ever being attracted to anyone except Chase.

I know that if I don't say something now, she will win.

"You're wrong." I mutter and she smiles. Even her smile sends electricity through me.

"I'm never wrong." She says and I move away from the wall before she can push me against it.

"Why do you keep saying I throw myself at you if you're the one corning me now?" I ask, my anger pushing past my lust for this maddening tattooed girl.

"Because you made the first move on me, don't get me wrong I was as surprised as you were." She laughs.

"I was drunk and had a long night, as I already told you. I was confused because you were being nice to me, well your version of being nice." I say and sit down on the curb before I end up against the wall. Talking to her is so exhausting.

"I am not that mean to you." She says, the statement sounds more like a question than a comment.

"Yea, you are. You go out of your way to be mean to me. Not just me, but everyone. It just seems like you are extra hard on me." I can't believe I am being this honest with her. I know its a matter of minutes before she turns on me.

"That's just not true. I am no meaner to you than the rest of the general population." She smirks and I stand up. I knew I couldn't have a normal discussion with her.

"I don't know why I keep wasting my time!" I yell as I am walking away from her.

"Hey, I am sorry. Just come back over here."

I groan but my feet move before my brain can catch up. I stand a few feet away from her and she sits on the curb where I was previously sitting.

"Sit" she demands and I do.

"You're sitting awfully far" she says and I roll my eyes. "You don't trust me?"

"No, of course I don't, why would I?" Her face falls slightly as my words hit her but she recovers quickly. Why would she care if I trusted her?

"Can we just agree to either stay away from each other or be friends? I don't have it in me to keep fighting with you." I sigh and she moves a little closer.

SHe takes a deep breath before she speaks. "I don't want to stay away from you." What? My heart beats out of my chest.

"I mean.. I don't think we can stay away from each other, with one of my best friends being your roommate and all. So I suppose we should try to be friends." I try to hide my disappointment from her words but this is what I want right? I can't keep kissing Max and cheating on Chase.

"Okay so friends?"

"Friends." She agrees and reaches out her hand for me to shake.

"Not friends with benefits." I remind her and feel the blood rush to my cheeks.

She chuckles and plays with her eyebrow as she speaks. "What makes you say that?"

"Like you don't know, Addison already told me."

"What about me and her?"

"You and her, and you and every other girl." I try to fake a laugh but it comes out as a cough. She raises her eyebrow at me but ignore her.

"Well me and Addison .. that was fun." She smiles as if remembering something and I swallow the vile rising in the back of my throat.

"And yea, I have girls that I fuck but why does that concern you?" She is so nonchalant about the whole thing while I am in shock. Hearing her admit to sleeping with other girls shouldn't bother me but it does. She isn't mine, Chase is. Chase is. Chase is. I remind myself.

"It doesn't, I just don't want you to think that I will be one of those girls."

"Aww.. are you jealous Charli?" She mocks me and I shove her. There is no way in hell I will ever admit that.

"No, absolutely not. I feel sorry for the girls." I say and she laughs.

"Oh, you shouldn't. They enjoy it, trust me."

"Okay, okay. I get it. Change the subject please." I groan and lift my head back to look at the sky. I need to clear the image of Max and multiple girls out of my mind. "So will you try to be nicer to me?"

"Sure. Will you try not to be so uptight and bitchy all the time?"

"I am not bitchy, you're just obnoxious." I start laughing and she joins in.

It's a nice change from screaming at each other in class. I know we haven't really resolved the big issue here which is the feelings that I may or may not have for her, but if I can just get her to stop kissing me, I can focus back on Chase and stop this terrible cycle before it gets worse.

"Look at us, two friends." her accent is so appealing when she isn't being rude.

Hell, even then it is but when her voice is soft her accent makes it so much softer, like velvet. The way words roll of her tongue and through her pink lips.. I can't think about her lips. I tear my eyes away from her face and stand up. Wiping my skirt off.

"That skirt really is dreadful C, if we are going to be friends you need to not wear that anymore."

For a second I am hurt but when I look up at her she is smiling. This must be the way she jokes, still rude but I will take this over the malicious way she usually behaves.

My phone starts to vibrate, it's my alarm going off. "I need to get back and study."

"You set an alarm to study?"

"I set an alarm for a lot of things, it's just something I do." I hope she lets this go.

"We should do something fun tomorrow after class." She offers.

Who is this and where is Max?

"I don't think my idea of fun is the same as yours." I can't even imagine what 'fun' is to Max.

"Well we will only sacrifice a few cats, then we will burn down a few buildings.." I can't stop the giggle from escaping and she smiles back.

"Really though, you could use some fun and since we are new friends we should do something fun." I need a few moments to contemplate whether I should be alone with Max before I answer her.

Before I answer she turns to walk away, "Good, I am glad you agree. I will see you tomorrow." She says and she's gone.

I don't say anything back, I just sit back down on the curb. My head is spinning from the last twenty minutes with Max. She basically offered me sex, telling me I have no idea how good she could make me feel. Then, a few minutes later she was agreeing to try to be nice to me, we were laughing and joking and it was nice. There are still so many questions I have for her, like why she is the way she is, but I know the more I know about her the worse this will be. I can be friends with Max, like Addison is, okay not like Addison but like Sam or one of their other friends. This is really the best thing, no more kissing, no more sexual advances from her, just friends. As I walk back to my room, I try to shake the fear that I just walked into another one of her traps.