I Promised - [Larry fan fiction]

Always in your thoughts

Harry was mentally not present, everything was dizzy and he couldn't even remember how the greeting exactly went off.

All he noticed was the sparkle in Louis' eyes, the hand of Louis' boyfriend that kept rubbing the smaller boy's back and most importantly the way Louis treated Harry.
He treated him like he had forgotten who Harry was, like he didn't know him. He didn't treat him bad, not at all. But that was, what made Harry nearly go insane.

He expected to be treated like dirt, like trash, like nothing. After what he had done to Louis, he had hoped to be treated like that.
But instead Harry saw that Louis had already moved on, and it hurt him.

Harry immediately lost all hope. He felt so ridiculous for believing what Liam and Niall had kept telling him. They had said that Louis and Harry were gonna get back together, they were belonging to each other and neither of them could live without the other.

"How could I bel-believe this. H-he is better without m-me. I was so stupid to think, that I-i would get another cha-chance...", Harry wispered to himself while everyone else was chatting cheerfully.

He felt a painful stab in his chest as if his heart had just broken into much smaller pieces. Every breath felt like fire down his throat and every time he blinked he had to hold back his tears.

Louis looked over to Harry again. It nearly killed him to see how pale and skinny he looked. His green eyes weren't shinning like they used to do. It was clear to see that Harry hadn't found anybody who had taken care of him, like Jermaine. Sure he had Niall and Liam, but they were just friends and nothing more.

Louis wasn't even sure if he would like to call Jermaine his boyfriend. They weren't friends for sure, they had kissed each other several times, however it didn't feel like love to Louis. Did it feel like love to Jermaine? Louis had always felt good around Jermaine, but he was never able forget Harry.

And now that Harry was in front of him, he didn't even know if he wanted to be around Jermaine anymore.

He didnt know how to behave. Normally he would've been in his thoughts about their break up, complaning how much he actually missed Harry, but he wouldn't let him see that.He didn't want to show how he really felt so he forced himself to smile and act like everything was fine.

And with every fake laughter he felt more miserable. Louis' heart broke more and more, although he should have stopped caring about the person, who broke his heart in the first place. Another glance at the tall curly boy, just standing there not participating in the conversation at all. Louis was sure, he was about to go insane by now.

"It's what he deserves.", Jermaine said quietly so only Louis could hear it, but he immediately regretted saying that.

"What did you just say?", Louis said, feeling the anger inside of himself.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I-i was just-", Jermaine tried to defend himself, but he was cut off by Louis.

"I can't believe you just said that. I thought I knew you better"

Jermaine tried to continue still whispering:
"-But it's just because he did these terrible things to you an-"

"I think it's time to leave, guys!", Liam said smiling at his friends.

"We're gonna continue talking about this in the car, ok?" Jermaine whispered, but Louis had enough.

"Payno, I think I'll stay here, I'm not feeling too good."

"Uh... sure. I mean if you really want to...erm", Liam said perplexed, triying to hide his shock.

"Thanks", Louis didn't look at Jermaine.

It had hurt so much when he saw the curly headed boy in such visible pain and Jermaine really had said, Harry deserved it.

Jermaine tried to speak to Louis, but got ignored every time. Then he gave up and left with the others.

After everybody was gone, Louis suddenly realized that Harry hadn't left with them, so he still had to be there. It was a weird feeling for Louis to know that he was alone with Harry again after over a month.

He went to the kitchen and took a seat at Liam's huge, wooden dining table. He drank a bit of water, to cool off from all the anger he had built up.

He never thought Jermaine would say something like that. The model knew that Louis still loved Harry and still cared about him despite all of the things that had happened.

He had to think of Harry again. These green eyes that had looked so helpless and in pain.

When Louis had seen Harry standing at the door as they had arrived, he had stopped breathing.
And somewhere in his head a voice had been telling him to run into his arms and hold him as tight as possible.
He knew he couldn't do that, although he wanted it more than anything.
'Jesus' he thought 'why do you always have to be in my thoughts?'

Suddenly a dull thud filled the silence. It sounded like somebody fell down the stares. 'What was that?'
'Was that Harry?'
'please...Don't tell me he did something bad!'
Louis got up quickly and ran to the stare case as fast as he could.

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