Another year of school began; I was excited for maybe this year will be different from the one before... I was excited but not happy. Three years have passed since Sally the girl I loved broke my heart and turned me into what I am now. I'm still single, still on my own.
To make things clear, I was fine, I had a lot of friends, all of them loved me. I had a decent part time job, and I was a year closer to graduating college! I kept myself busy all the time, through work, college, friends, or even my parents.
You can say my day was full, from 8 AM till 11 PM. But the thing is, that one or two hours before you go to sleep that moment where you are free from work from chores from everything... Is the moment you start thinking about events that transpired. You start evaluating your life decisions and your goals.
I was doing okay. But still i was not happy, it felt like something was missing, I knew what it was but I tried to convince myself otherwise. Until that day came and reality hit me!
I used to finish work at 10 PM every day. Normally i head back home, but my friend Mike and i had this tradition that each Tuesday i visit him after work. Every Tuesday I go to his house, we get some soft drinks, we watch an episode of our favorite show, and we chit-chat for a while until we ran out of things to talk about! Then i head back home. You can say it was the highlight of my week!
One Tuesday I was walking back to my car after our tradition was over. It was 12:20 PM, It was a winter night, cold as hell, I rapped my scarf around my neck buttoned up my jacket, and started walking back to my car... The streets were empty, not a single car passed by. It was so quite I could hear the sound of the wind blowing. I was walking alone on the streets... I felt as if i was alone in this world...
We all have best friends that care about you, but we all need that special person! That one person you feel comfortable and safe around. That person whom we open up to, that person we care about mostly... As for me... I didn't have that person...
I went back home, changed my cloth, brushed my teeth, and was ready for bed. Two hours later I was still awake, I couldn't sleep! I was just lying on my bed thinking... Wondering what's keeping me up. As it turned out to be the feeling of loneliness...
This was one of the lowest points of my life so far. I was alone; I had no one to love, and no one that loved me. I felt empty...
