Misunderstood

Chapter 10

Cameron kept trying to get my attention by throwing rocks and yelling at my window.I heard a knock on my door and you could probably guess who it was.I tried my hardest not to open that door and go crying back in his arms.I couldn't handle another heart break.Having Cameron in life could mean more happiness and more pain at the same time.Am I willing to risk getting my heart broken again?Will it be worth it?

These are the times I wish I had a lock on my door.When he opened the door my heart dropped.I didn't know what to do.Someone that seen my true self yet still remains by my side was a new experience I didn't know how to handle.He sat on my bed close but not too close.He tried to speak but I cut him off.

"Cameron you need to leave now and never talk to me again.I can't explain right now but please, if you really care about me you will forgot this past week with me." I said with a stern voice.As much as it hurt me to say it I couldn't imagine how much it had hurt Cameron.I could just see his heart break into a thousand million pieces.He was shocked by my response,but it was true.

"SHUT UP!Please don't say another word.I know I messed up and it's eating me alive.Im so sorry,I didn't know what I was thinking.Please forgive me." "Cameron I forgive you,but I just can't promise you that I can fully trust you again." I said "You don't get it don't you?This past week with you has been the best week I ever had in my entire life.I love you and frankly I can't keep you off my mind.I love every thing about you.How every time I talk to you,you stutter, blush,and smile all at the same time.I don't care what other people think of you as long as you know that I love you that is all that matters to me." Cameron said with tear stains on his face.

"You sure you love me?" I asked. "One hundred perfect."he said. "Cameron,as much as I want to love you back I just can't." I tried to continue but soft lips interrupted me. As soon as I took recognition of what was happening I pulled away dumbfounded. "I'm sorry.Im so sorry.I'm an idiot.I'm stupid.I'm so terribly sorry.I just couldn't handle it."Cameron said with his face buried in his hands as he kept repeating what he was saying.

I was still in shock I felt paralyzed and numb. "Cameron its okay." I managed to say. "What? You don't hate me?" he asked confused. " Cameron I love you,I really do. I just hate the idea that people can't accept that and I have to pay for it."I said. I didn't know where these words were coming from,but they just flowed out of my heart,but what if it was too late and my heart was already too broken to listen to?

I was completely wrong.Sometimes the heart needs and a little breaking so when you find your happiness it will shine and you will forget it was ever broken in the first place.