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XIV. Great Lengths

October 10, 2019
6:23 AM

Victor's

I moaned from the sun peeking through my bedroom window, lighting my face like a torrid nimbus. I quickly lifted my hand and covered my face in an attempt to fall into a deep slumber but my mind was already awake. I slowly opened my eyes and was welcomed by the sunlight brightening the room and the dust-motes dancing in the light.

I slowly lowered my hand away from my face and allowed the sunlight to shine on me. I moved my curly hair away from my eyes and stared at the ceiling, the last remnants of my magnificent dream is still fresh on my waking mind. It was a magnificent dream because Lorraine was there and she's with me. The details began to fade as I try to recall them but I can remember some. We went to Santorini, Greece, and swam the crystal-blue waters together. Then, we climbed Mount Everest and kissed when we reached the peak. We also went on a submarine and dived into the challenger deep. When we finished our tiresome journey, we went to the mall to eat at McDonald's and watch movies together until I woke up.

"I hope dreams like this will come true." I thought to myself as I let out a sigh. "But dreams are dreams," I muttered under my breath as I slowly sat on the bed until I felt a hand hugged me and a head resting on my arm. I quickly looked at my left and realized it was Lorraine.

A small smile crept on my face as I stared at her, sleeping peacefully. I carefully tucked a portion of her hair behind her ears and kissed her forehead. With a mental sigh, I cautiously hopped out of the bed and groggily went to the bathroom to prepare myself for the day.

After I took a bath and brushed my teeth, I grabbed a towel on the cabinet and dried myself. I opened the bathroom door and cautiously walked towards the wardrobe to pick some clothes. I chose to wear a plain white t-shirt and pants and changed inside the bathroom, afraid that she'll wake up the moment I removed the towel from my body. It only took me 5 minutes to dress before I took a final look at her and proceed to her room to clean the mess we made.

The floorboards creaked as I strode along the sunlit hall, my mind preoccupied with the thought of what happened last night. "How can I fix the door I busted down?" I thought to myself as the figure of her sunlit room came into view. As soon as I entered the room, I realized that the broken door is gone and her bed has been made.

"Did you do this?"

The sound of Giovanni's voice made me jump out of surprise. "Geez, where did you come from?" I exhaled sharply, my hands pressed against my chest. "You scared me for a second," I confessed followed by a sigh.

He only raised a brow at me, waiting for me to answer his question. "Yes but I only did that because she was having a terrible nightmare and the door's locked, not because I'm a creep or something." I joked as I entered the room and scanned the place. "He did a great job of cleaning the room." I thought to myself as I sat on the bed. My eyes focused on the bedside table and saw the patient's record placed beside the lamp until a slightly opened drawer caught my eye.

"Is she alright?" Giovanni asked, a hint of worry and nervousness lingering in his voice which made me look at him suspiciously. "Is he still in love with her?" I thought to myself as I slowly nodded.

"She's peacefully asleep in my room," I replied. "The room at the end of the hallway." In the blink of an eye, he turned his heel on me and ran towards my room where Lorraine is currently in a deep slumber.

A scoff escaped my lips as I rolled my eyes in irritation, perhaps even in jealousy. I can't believe Giovanni is still in love with her, after all the months that he spent with different girls that he probably even screwed. While Lorraine, on the other hand, spent those months with her family, trying her best to forget the past, forgive him and move on. She said that she finally moved on, but I'm smarter than that. I know that a part of her still loves him which made me feel envious over him. After he broke her heart, Lorraine still loves him. While I, who gave her nothing but love and happiness, am still nothing but a friend in her eyes.

I let out a sigh and shook my head disappointingly as my tears began to well up. I quickly rubbed my eyes irritatingly before the hot liquid stream down on my cheeks. "Someday, you'll be mine, Lorraine," I muttered under my breath as I began to space out. "When that happens, I will be the happiest and luckiest man in the world." I smiled to myself and began to daydream until my gaze fell on her bedside table.

"Oh, I forgot," I muttered under my breath as I fully opened the drawer, revealing an envelope similar to the envelope I got. "This must be her work schedule." I thought to myself as I opened the envelope and saw a folder. I quickly pulled it out and smiled to myself as I realized I was right, it is her work schedule.

I opened the folder and skimmed through it to get the general meaning of the text until my gaze fell on the table below. "Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday." I read under my breath as a small smile crept on my face. "Just like mine." I thought to myself as I closed the folder and placed it inside the envelope.

I breathed a sigh of relief as I began to daydream and imagine what we would do during those days we are free. We have the opportunity to bond and spend time together like we always do back when we were in college. "We will go to Paris using my private jet where we will have a dinner cruise down the Seine. Then, we'll visit the Paris Catacombs because I know you love a thrill. Before we leave, we will go on top of the Eiffel Tower and watch the light show as we sip champagne. We will watch the stars twinkle before our eyes and welcome the cold Paris breeze with our arms open wide." My smile widened as I began to visualize every moment.

"Then, we'll go to Japan during the winter season. Next, the Philippines, where we will eat their delicious delicacies and visit their majestic beaches. We will continue to visit different countries, climb mountains and swim oceans until we traveled the world by land, sea, and air." A satisfied smile crept on my face as I imagined how fun and splendid that journey would be until I remembered that we're not here to have fun. We're here to work and treat mentally insane patients.

I let out a sigh as I came back to my senses. "I will make that happen," I muttered under my breath as I stood up, the envelope in hand. "I'm willing to wait and prove myself worthy of your love because I love you." I thought to myself as I began to walk towards my room, the sound of my heavy footsteps echoing in the hall.

The sunlight coming from my room came in to view, indicating that Giovanni already arrived there. As soon as I entered the room, I saw him kneeling beside the bed, playing with Lorraine's hair. "I won't let anyone get in my way, especially not the one who broke your heart." I walked towards the bedside table and hid the envelope behind my back so that Giovanni won't see me holding it.

He smiled at me politely which I returned with a small smile. I waited for him to avert his gaze on her before I hid the envelope on the drawer. I breathed a sigh of relief as I closed it and stared at him. I clenched my fist and narrowed my eyes at him while he's not facing me. "No matter what it takes."