Just Friends [√]

Prologue

" It is a relief ,she didn't remember anything that happened, " words that were whispered behind her back,  didn't offer her any consolation , because how does one suppose to feel when their body had been violated without their consent ,how does one  react when such act happened while they were unconscious ,and how does one  deal with it when the person who harmed you fell to his death right before your eyes .

The whispers from the nurses stopped when they realized she was no longer asleep, at the hurried footsteps behind her, she supposed they left her alone . It has been two days since that night and the doctors assured her parents that she can go back home tonight but for some reason she didn't want to go home ,to a place that still held her hopes and dreams. 

Footsteps made her alert yet again , the fear and panic she felt were unreasonable, but her mind was prepared to run if a stranger walked inside, she didn't understand her reaction but after that night she was always on guard as if trying to protect herself from harm. 

 " How do you feel beta? " her mother's  voice made her feel like crying all over again, their concern while evident made what she went through more real.

She read about it in newspapers,
seen it in news and always felt the righteous fury against the monsters and yet when it happened to her, all she felt was a sense of loss as if she didn't really know who she was anymore .

 " Fine maa, " she lied, because the last thing her parents need were to realize just how lost she felt in the last two days. Another set of footsteps made her guard up as her father walked inside with a look of wariness .

 A wariness she caused in him by her actions ,in the last two days she behaved unreasonably towards her father ,even if he accidentally touched her , she flinched and shied away making her feel guilty. He was the last man in this earth who would harm her yet her body doesn't seem to acknowledge that, any touch made her flinch even the doctors except her mom  . 

The doctors told her parents that counselling will help and it is expected that the person who went through trauma need time to recover. Yet she hated herself for hurting them ,it wasn't her fault that her body refused to cooperate with her, but she felt guilty,  when she saw her father took few steps back from her side . 

 And by the time they moved her back home later that night, she hoped it would get better yet when her twelve year old brother rushed to hug her, she pushed him away from her so fast that he fell on the floor. It shocked her so much that she could harm her own brother, that she  went and locked herself inside her room and  broke down in tears . 

The doctors told her it will get better,  but back then she didn't know how worse she would fall first.  She thought she was stronger when she moved past her biological father abandonment. She thought she was stronger as she learnt to live with a broken heart, when the love of her life broke up with her , she thought she had seen it all after the night and survived through it .

 But she didn't realize back then there is more pain in the world then she could possibly  imagine. And she didn't know how much it would test her remaining strength in the following days . 

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Juanita Reid

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