The Silence I Needed (Mori x Reader)

The Impurity in the Club and in the Mind

Well shit, Takashi. How did you think that would help the situation? It seemed to take the room a moment to connect the dots between "be nice to my fiancée" and "Mori-senpai! Did you hear that? (Y/N) and her boyfriend got engaged! Isn't that wonderful news" to which Mori had so calmly replied the day before. And of course there was screaming and the girls were crying and I could not have cared less. So it was the Benio situation all over again, except this time the girls had actual reasons to be mad. Mori and I are dating and engaged. Mori and I spend a lot of time together outside of school. Mori and I have kissed... among other things. Mori has told me he loves me. This would all be a dream come true for these girls. I know it was for me.

I saw Grace through the crowd and she almost looked upset. Like she really felt guilty. I had asked her not to tell though. She is not the victim here. She made eye contact and pointed towards the door. She wanted to talk to me. Too bad. I'm not ready to talk to her yet. She told MY secret. I wasn't ready and she made that decision for me. I shook my head and hid my face in Mori's shirt until Tamaki came over. "Senpais, can we talk to you for a minute?" He gestured to the back room where the other hosts had congregated.

Back there, I sat in the same chair they'd held me down in on my first day with the club, and Mori stood beside me. Kyoya, who was likely aware of the full story, stepped towards the two of us. "Please. Enlighten us on the situation." Oh wow he's pissed.

"My friend Grace saw Takashi and I... hanging out at the park. I asked her not to tell anyone and I guess she did anyway."

"And why, praytell, did you confirm these rumors, Mori-senpai?" Now that's an answer I'd like to hear as well.

"The attacks on (Y/N) are going to continue no matter what. By telling the guests the truth, I can take some of the heat off of her."

"But senpai," Haruhi asked, "won't this interfere with your job as a host?"

"We tried to be careful, you guys." I was feeling pretty guilty at this point. "Whether the rumors were confirmed or not, they were going to jeopardize his 'work'."

"Besides. (Y/N) is more important to me than being a host." The boys awwed at us, until there was a loud banging on the doors. It was the guests, angry that I'd taken all seven hosts' attention. "We should get you out of here." Mori took my hand and led me through yet another back door. We ran through the hallways and out the front of the school, where Lewis was waiting for me.I turned to Mori in question. "Mitsukuni called for him."

I nodded and kissed him on the cheek. I pulled him down further, to whisper in his ear. "My parents are gone for the next week and a half for some business conferences in Koshigaya. Don't be a stranger." Mori looked at the sidewalk, face blazing as Lewis took me away.

At home, I wheezed for a good ten minutes by the front door. I can't believe I told him that. What was I thinking? What if he- what if I? Holy fuck (Y/N). I gathered the main staff of the house (including Sophie and Lewis) and explained what I'd told Mori. Without direct quotes. And attempted minimum embarrassment. "Most important: Mom and Dad can not know." No one put up a fight except for the old maid Jenny. She yelled about it being improper. Jenny claimed my father should be contacted immediately. Sophie managed to convince her to let it happen. I have no idea how though.

After dinner, Sophie sat me down with an excited look on her face. Oh boy. I don't like where this is going. "I had a feeling this would happen, so I got you a few things." Oh I really don't like where this is going. She pulled up a large shopping bag with no brand name on it. The first thing she pulled out was a bottle of perfume with an opalesque top. She sprayed a bit and it smelled like... vanilla and honey? This is good though. This is okay. After that was lotion. Cool. I've been needing more. The next thing she pulled out was foundation and concealer. That was fine until she said "to cover up the love in front of your parents." By then I realized what was going on. She pulled out a dress that would've been more accurately called a scrap of lace and strings. The last thing she pulled out was a box of condoms. Oh my God this woman has no fucking chill whatsoever.

"Sophie, oh my fucking God." I couldn't even look her in the eyes. I was screeching into a pillow on my bed and rocking back and forth with everything laid out in front of me. I've thought about it and- and that was definitely what I was implying. I think. But this? This makes it real.

"Oh, and last thing, because I know you're a 'woman in charge' kind of girl." I was mortified by the handcuffs she pulled from the bottom of the bag.. I was officially dead. Again.

"What the- excuse me Sophie but what the actual fuck?" I gestured to everything laid out before me.

"Okay. Hear me out." She looked a little flustered herself. "I'm really happy for you and Mori, but I want to make sure you're being safe. I prepared this stuff because I figured it'd happen sooner or later, what with your parents' trip coming up. I also try not to mention it, but you and Mori haven't exactly been coming home in a presentable state lately. It's easy to see what's going on. Why do you think I always rush you upstairs before your parents can see you?" She's right. Shit. This is a good thing. She's preparing me. That doesn't mean anything is going to happen. I thanked her and she asked if I had any questions. I asked a few about me, a few about her and her experience. I asked if she and Lewis were a thing, and she almost fell off the bed. I laughed, taking her raging red face as a yes.

When I got to school the next day, the stares of the girls around me didn't even phase me. I was too focused on not making eye contact with Mori. Seeing him after everything I talked about with Sophie made me think about things she got me. And not just about the things, but about actually using them.. Am I a pervert? I'm not right? He's my fiancé, so it's not weird. He probably thinks about these things too... OH MY GOD WHAT IF HE THINKS ABOUT THESE THINGS TOO!? I just about passed out at my desk after that. Then everyone was looking at me. Then Mori was looking at me. Then I panicked and passed out.

When I came to, I was in a bed in the nurse's office and Mori was leaning over me. I got up so fast I knocked foreheads with him. "Sorry! Crap! I'm so sorry Takashi you surprised me." I rubbed at my own forehead and squeaked as he grabbed my free hand.

"Just glad you're okay." The nurse came over pushing Mori out of the way. She checked for a fever and made sure I had no head injuries (aside from the one I'd given myself with Mori a second ago). The nurse gave an okay and wrote us a pass back to class.

"How long was I out?"

"'Bout half an hour."

"Mhm." Mori took my hand in his as we walked the empty hallways. It was nice. "Hey Takashi, you know I love Haruhi and the guys, right? We've gotten close over the past three and a half months." He nodded. "Well, I need you to tell them I said 'bye for now'. I won't be visiting the host club for a while." Mori opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off. "And I understand your duties to the club. Don't quit just because I stop coming. We can still hang out tons... like... do you maybe want to stay over on Friday for a movie marathon?"

He almost tripped over his own feet, but I couldn't blame him. I wanted to hide in Nekozawa's room and I was the one who asked the question.

"That sounds like fun. I can't wait." He smiled a little and pulled me a little closer. There's no way this is going to go right, but I'm still gonna try.