in the eyes of fury - chanrosé

Sit Here and Talk

Eunwoo's POV
I watched over Chaeyoung for the night since she was drunk and could wake up in a slightly conscious state. "Sleep well, Chaeyoungie." I then explored her room and discovered many things due to her hanging pictures, she kept a box of the past memories, including her sweet memories of Chanyeol. "Him.." I wondered and felt the success because of how much I trusted my instinct only to find the biggest proof of her history with Chanyeol. "What are you doing?" I heard Chaeyoung speak behind me. I turned to her with a rapid smile as I raised 3 pictures of her and Chanyeol and her eyes widened, struggling to take it from me.

She kept trying to take the pictures from me, even though she was very small, she tried so very hard until I yelled at her, "HE WAS YOUR BOYFRIEND!" I yelled and she paused for a moment to think about it. "I.. I mean..." I felt guilty for reminding her about their past relationship, loosening my grip of the pictures as she snatched them from me. "Wanna talk about it?" I tried to be as gentle as possible. "Yeah.. I guess..." Now I just feel like I'm the worst man alive. I had just ruined her morning.

"Chanyeol and I.. We used to be, something. Until, he started being mean, being very aggressive with me, and thats when I found out that he found someone." I couldn't help but think of what kind of bastard he must've been for hurting her, provided that Chaeyoung is very sensitive, and he could possibly be the reason as to why she's gotten 10 times more sensitive nowadays.

"I also found out that he was only being abusive because.. He didn't want to get attached to me, as much as he was before.." I saw the tears forming in her eyes as I stared into them. It was very clear, she never wants to love ever again, after the many times Chanyeol hurt her, asked for forgiveness, it went on like that until he left for Japan.

"Why?" I asked.
"Because he was leaving for Japan. To be with his family." She clarified herself, before her tears finally broke free. "I thought we would be fine by now." She cried as I walked to sit beside her, leaning her head onto my shoulder as she cried.

Chaeyoung's POV
Crying about my past relationship with Chanyeol for the first time in 3 years just felt like 3 weeks before his departure from South Korea. "I missed him even though he was a real bitch to me.." I cried as much as I could and I knew that Doyeon listened to me. That's what's so special about him, he was always a loving friend, and was always clingy too. "He really was a bitch to you, wasn't he?" He agreed with me, which made me hug him even tighter.

It was just a plain Tuesday morning, we went to school early so nobody was really there yet. I still struggled with the fact that I was faced with my ex every single morning since he was my classmate after all. It still hurt me to see him with a girl he doesn't even like. I felt bad that he had to go through the same things every school day, he had to go to school, meet an obnoxious young lady and endure every minute he spent with her just because he didn't want to be an issue around school since Wendy could spread anything about anyone when she wants to.

"Chanyeolssi wants to talk to you for a moment." Taeyeon approached me in my seat. "Yeah, where is he?" I asked, slightly nervous, unsure if I could still handle talking to him. He's the one concerned now, and that's not bad at all. He won't hurt me right? "I can come with you if you'd like." She offered and I surely wanted that because Taeyeon can really punch a man in the face, just in case Chanyeol hurts me again, I guess.

Taeyeon led me to the school garden where Chanyeol bought ice cream for me. What? thats so unlike him, how did he change like this? Either way, I still don't trust him up to this day. "I'll just be around." With that, Taeyeon left me with Chanyeol who walked towards me and handed me an ice cream. "Isn't cotton candy flavor your favorite?" I nodded at his gentle question. Still pretty cautious around him, though. Please I hope he doesn't hurt me, he had already hurt me in public and I just hope he had changed during his stay in Japan.

"Are you sca-"
"No.. I'm fine." I tried to be positive there. Even though Chanyeol knew how much he scarred me, he wouldn't feel sorry about it, because he's trash. "You can tell me anything, Chaey." He tried to sound soothing, and comforting. But even though he was a real bitch, I could still say that nobody can be as comforting as this giant I'm standing right next to. "Can I ask.. A question?" I was clearly nervous, even more nervous than I think I should be.

"Ask away." He confirmed
"Why did you suddenly buy me an ice cream?" I asked, trying so hard to not show how obviously scared and uncomfortable I was with him.
"Because I was worried, and no, I did not just buy you an ice cream. This is, an ice cream date."  He clarified, in a positive manner, still just smiling at me.

"Tell me Chaeyoung, are you... Scared of me?" He leaned in closer to my face, studying my expression. "Hm.. I understand, you're feeling awkward with this distance." He then pulled away and sent me a wink. "Rosie, have you been eating well lately?" He asked seeing that I was already finishing my cone. I chuckled, "I've been eating a lot." He ruffled my hair and held my waist as we entered the lounge area. "Classes would be starting soon. Should we go now?" I asked, desperate for him to leave.

"Well, why don't we just sit here and talk?" He invited as I sat next to him, keeping a good distance which was soon ruined by him. He slid across the bench and sat really close to me. "What's taking you so long with your ice cream?" He laughed at my impatience. "I get it, you really don't like it when people drag you into trouble. You hate getting late." He explained, completely guessed correctly about my feelings.

"And you're afraid of me." He confirmed, not letting me insist any further. "How so?" I looked at him in the eyes as he broke eye-contact, frowning in the process before finally finishing off his ice cream cone. "Don't act like you don't know." He smirked looking slightly angry. And I swear, I could feel my heart beat go quicker than a race champion out of nervousness.

"Is this about-" He cut me off, giving me a sign that he's already getting very very angry.
"Yes it is." He confirmed, clearly losing his temper but could still keep it all inside. 
"Why can't we just.."
"What?" I asked, curious about what he wants to say.
"Nevermind." He couldn't seem to let it out.
"This is exactly what you think it is about. And I know you're over it, but why do you still have to act like I'm a fucking monster?! Am I really that much of an arsehole? Do I look very unlovable?" He seemed so hurt, but why didn't it make me feel pity for him? Does this mean I'm slowly getting over him?

"Chanyeolssi" I tried to calm him down, but even I can't either.
"You didn't answer my question." He was clearly losing his temper, almost about to unleash the beast inside him. I stood up, thinking if I should stand up for myself or if I should just comfort him as a friend, I mean I haven't been brave in awhile, so I might as well be right now. "Listen Chanyeol, whatever happened in the past, it's over. Maybe people could forgive, but it's never easy to forget. So it's much better if we just try to leave everything behind and not think about it first." I hurriedly walked away to class.

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Forgiving and Forgetting — are both very hard decisions to make. Which one do you think will Chaeyoung choose? the mystery begins >> next chapter

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