Life Behind the Curtains: $old. (Shawn Mendes Fanfic)

Chapter 11

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Shawn P.O.V.

Goddammit!!! I can't find the damn file? Where the fuck could it be?

I hold an exhausted groan at the tip of my tongue, as I didn't want to wake Amber up.

I look at the mess I made on the floor and press my hands against the side of my head. Did I bring it here? Maybe it's still at the studio? 

I felt a slight urge to get up and drive there, but I know it's too late to leave Amber alone at night.

Oh, I have to tell her I changed the password to the lock again. When Amber told me last night,  I understood why. All my fans know when my birthday is. Too risky.

Instead, I opted for something simpler. 5488. My birthday and her birthday. May 4th and August 8th. 

The only reason I know her birthday is because her dad told me when we were meeting up before the wedding. I still remember it.

I don't know why I care, but I do.

I walked out of the messy office, promising myself to clean it up tomorrow morning. I brush my teeth and stand over the bed.

As if the kitten sensed me, he lifted his head up from Amber's neck and trotted off into the open cage, curling up. It's like Stormy was filling in for me while I was gone.

Nah, that's crazy. It's just a kitten anyway. I really need to get some sleep, or else I'll continue to think stupid things.

I couldn't help but think of what Amber said to me the other day. How I need to change in order for this to work. She's right.

But what did she mean when she said that I need this?

I've always worked hard to get to the position I am in. My family didn't grow up rich. I had to put in hard work and sweat to achieve this life. Yet people think I always have it easy. 

Complaining is a human habit.

All those sleepless nights, my fingers bleeding from playing the guitar nonstop, the countless times I lost my voice from straining it. 

This new song is really tough.  I just have this melody that's been stuck in my head for the longest time, but lyrics can't come to me. I need inspiration.

(In tone of Where Were You In The Morning-Shawn Mendes) Tun tun tun tuntunna tun tun tun tun tun. Tu rut tu ru ru ru ruttu tu ru ru ru.

Then I woke up to the cold air, yeah

I stared at the ceiling while laying in bed, humming softly.

How could you make me believe?
That there was so much more to see, yeah

No, that right line doesn't fit right, how about-

How could you make me believe?
That there was something in between you and me, yeah

That sounds much better.  Finally, some inspiration dawned on me. 

"I look around and I can't see you," Amber chips in, her soft, smooth voice surprising. I smile, not looking at her, "Thanks, that's really good."