Illusion: Destiny Awaits (In Editing)

14 - Sabrina

Ugh, I can't believe Christi! I mean, I do sorta get why she's mad at me, but still. At first, all I was doing was trying to get on his good side. But it just so happens that I might have gotten a little too in character, or... I don't know! Actually, I might. But I really hope my theory is wrong. Because, if it's not, I have no idea what I will do.

But anyway! My life is pretty boring right now, since Christi and I aren't talking to each other. I really do miss her, but I feel like she needs to apologize. Not me. But she probably thinks the opposite. Ahh, I don't know. It's all pretty darn confusing.

Right now, I am lying on my bed, at seven o'clock right now, and I have been up almost all night. I have mostly just been pondering things, and just being a very weird person in general.

I bolt upright.

Today is Kai's funeral.

Tears gather in my eyes, but I angrily brush them away. Save them for later almost. I invited Christi. Hopefully she'll still come. Although, it might be pretty awkward.

At the thought of going through this without my best friend, I quickly burst into tears. I can't help it. They just keep coming, like a faucet that can't be turned off.

I sniff, and bury my face into my soft yellow pillow. Subconsciously, I reach for my necklace.

It's not there. Of course. I start to scream quietly into my pillow, letting all my frustrations and worries out, into that old cushion. This is why I need my dog. He always helped me get through these things. I would run my fingers through his soft fur as he lay on my pillow. Normally, when he would jump up on my bed, I would shoo him off. But not when I was sad. And he knew it.

I try to pull myself together in vain. But whenever my thoughts drifted even a little bit, all the pieces just fall back apart.

Eventually, after about ten more minutes of this, I manage to pull it together and go downstairs for something to eat.

I'm home alone right now, Jago is out running, and both my parents are at work. I pour myself some cereal, but then decide that I don't want cereal, so I pour it back into the box. I take a pot out of the cupboard, and fill it with water. I set it on the stove and wait until it boils. Then I take out some pasta and pour them into the hot, boiling water.

While that cooks, I take out shredded cheese, flour, and milk, and pour the milk into a different pot to let it simmer. Then I add the cheese and flour in to make cheese sauce. I strain the noodles, and mix the two together. Ah, nothing like homemade mac and cheese.

As I eat my noodles, I try to mentally prepare myself for what is to come. Which is something so devastating, I don't know if I can handle it.

Kai was always very comforting for me. I've had a few minor fights with Christi in the past, and I always turned to him. Now I'm in my biggest fight with Christi yet, and no Kai to help me through it. Life is cruel in this way.

I sigh. I better clean up my dishes, otherwise my parents will not be happy.

I push myself out of my chair and tidy up the kitchen. I try to shake off my depressing gloom, and decide to go for a swim.

Oh wait. I have my boot. AGHH! Can't something go right in this world!?

My phone rings from the living room couch. I plod over to it, and see it is Mom. I take the call.

"Hey honey," my mom says, sounding tired.

"Hey," I say, my voice cracking slightly from disuse.

"I have some good news!" she tells me, her voice slightly contorted from the phone.

"What?" I ask, hope creeping up on me like ivy. I try to push it down, but to no avail.