Another (Hayes Grier)

Chapter 11: Two Truths & A Lie

Baileys POV

"Worthless"

"Your should be put in a hospital "

"Fucking weirdo"

"Why would you do that to yourself that's disgusting"

"Who you gonna go crying too now"

I am awoken by the voices. The voices that I hoped were long gone. They're back. Hurtful things and rumors of things I have forgotten. Hoping they were gone and never to come back. But they're here. The memories of torture make me shed tears.

I needed to tell someone. I can trust my lover can't i? Or will he be like the rest?

My love what will you do? Will you go along with the rest who have caused me countless nights crying. Or will you comfort me? Be there when they come, stay with me until there gone, help me fight them away?

Matt has not awakened yet. I'm glad because I needed time to think whether or not I should tell him. I walk into the shower. Because I don't want to be there when he awakes. I needed time.

The voices follow me into the shower. I don't expect them to leave until i satisfy them. I haven't done it in a while and I don't want to go back to it.

I turn on the water and let it soak my body and hair. With my fingers i massage my head. I grab the shampoo and see a shiny silver metal fall.

A razor

I haven't cut in awhile hell I even forgot I left one in here. The burning sensation is all I remember but I don't know if it was worth it or not. I won't try it but I'll keep it in the shower just so I can forget about it. The voices have gone away which is a good thing because my arms would been covered in scars.

I wash myself up and exit the shower to dry my dripping wet body. Matt is awake when i get back into the room. My decision of telling him has came to a conclusion. I will tell him my dark past.

"Up and early i see" Matt says with a smile. I try to smile but just thinking of my the voices makes me frown. Matt notices the emotion on my face and he stops smiling. "Did I do something wrong" he asks.

"No I just need to tell you something important that just came back" I say. I can feel my eyes start to water.

"Back?" I can hear the confusion in his voice. "Yea it's the voices that hurt me" I say.

"Matt I need you to stay with me on this one don't tell anyone can i trust you with that?" I plead as I go over to the bed. "Of course babe" he says wrapping his arm around me.

"Ok it all started in the in to the end of 8th grade................."

FLASHBACK

I walk out of school and go on the search for Robert. My emotions were killing me it was a mix of sadness and joy. The joy was because winter break was here and the sadness was because I won't be able to see my best friend Robert until school starts again.

Robert and I were close we always laughed I could count on him for anything. I go looking for him because I want to see my best friend before the day ends. I find him standing next to a tree and yell his name.

"ROBBIE" I yell. The nickname I gave him was Robbie because Robert sounded really boring. "I'm going to miss you"" I say giving him a hug.

"Mee too" he says. "I just wanted to say bye in person even though I could've texted you but I rather do it in person. "It means a lot Bailey" he says. "You're welcome I gotta go see you after the break" I say heading towards the bus.