The Dream -Oumasai

Part 11 - Shuichi's P.O.V.

I have many questions. First off, what just happened? Kokichi just kissed me. I never thought I was the person he liked. I barely thought we were friends. Although, it all made sense. He's been hanging out with me so much lately. Not to mention, he pretended to be my boyfriend and Kirumi pretty much admitted that Kokichi likes me. Plus, he kissed me! I feel so dumb since I didn't realize it sooner.

Secondly, do I like him back? I mean, the kiss wasn't bad and neither was the one he gave me earlier on the cheek. I'm just not sure if it was because I like him or just liked being kissed. I've never been kissed before. I don't think he has either.

Thirdly, do I like guys? I'm not even sure I like girls or guys, but I do know that if I do decide I like guys, Kokichi is going to be my boyfriend. It's just all confusing. Why do I have to make this decision? Why can't I just wake up one morning and decide 'I'm gay'? That would make everything so much easier. Now I have to decide between girls or guys. I know Keade also likes me, and I don't want to disappoint her too. I decided to go to the Computer Room. Then, I can figure out what's going on or at least distract myself with games.

When I arrive, I see Kirumi cleaning. "Hello Shuichi, what are you doing here?" She asked sweetly. I can just get her view on everything. Based on what she said in the Dining Hall, I think she knows about Kokichi's crush.

I let out a small sigh. "Do you know about Kokichi's crush on me?"

A small smile appeared on her face. "I guess you figured it out. So, do you like him back?" She put down her cleaning supplies.

I sit down in front of a computer. "That's the thing, I'm not sure if I'm into guys or girls."

"Well is there a girl you may like?" She sat next to me.

"Keade." I responded.

"Out of Kokichi and Keade, who do you like to be around more?"

"I um..." Kokichi lies a lot, but he's really sweet under that mask of his, and Keade is always really nice, but is so focused on finding a loophole to leaving here. She's more of a detective than I am. I've just accepted that we're stuck here for a while. "I guess Kokichi."

She nodded her head. "Okay, who do you think is more of a friend?"

"Keade." I quickly answered. Kokichi and I may be close, but Keade and I hung out more before I really got to know Ouma.

Kirumi nodded again. "Does your heart beat faster when you're near either of them?"

My eyes dropped to the floor, searching for some sort of answer. My heart beats faster around Ouma, but that's mainly because of the whole 'fake boyfriend' thing. However, that dream I had with him, where we were both in the love hotel, did make me feel something, I think. And then there's Keade, who doesn't know what personal space is. When she gets excited, she kind of hugs me. My heart beats like crazy. "I Don't know."

"Shuichi." I raised my head to see Kirumi smiling at me. "Have you ever thought you may like both guys and girls, more specifically Kokichi and Kaede."

I never thought about it like that. Maybe I do like both of them, but that makes everything more confusing. If I like them both, then how am I going to decide between them? I stood up and smiled. "Thank you, Kirumi. You helped a lot." Kirumi smiles at me before going back to cleaning. I opened it. On the other side was one of the people we were talking about, Kokichi Ouma. He looked like he was about to enter the room, before I opened the door.

Once he noticed me, he tried to run in the other direction. Lucky, I was able to grab his hand before he made an escape. "Let me go!" He shouted at me. He tried to get out of my grip.

"No, Kokichi. We have to talk." I said, trying to make him calm down.

"I don't wanna." Kokichi winned.

"Please, for five minutes." He stopped. I continued. "Thank you. I just wanted to say, I'm sorry." His head turned to me. "I shouldn't have reacted the way I did, but you took me by surprise."

"Does that mean you like me?" He seemed to calm down.

"The thing is I'm not sure. I just realized I'm bi, and there is a girl I like too."

"It's Keade isn't it." He sounded bitter.

I nodded. "Yeah it is."

He started shouting at me. "Well, she hates you." BEEP "She thinks you're smelly and stupid." BEEP "She'll never like you as much as I do." There wasn't a beep, but there were tears in Kokichi's eyes. I think he remembered he can't lie to me. I walked closer to him and hugged him. He started crying even more.

About ten minutes later, he stopped crying. I never thought a supreme leader would cry that much. He wiped his eyes. "I'm sorry, Shuichi. I never thought about it that way." He moved away from me.

"It's fine. It's not your fault." I said before he started walking away from me. I couldn't see his expression, but I'm sure he was upset.

I decided, I should tell Keade everything too. So, soon after he left, I went to her Ultimate Lab. That's where she normally is during the day. I was greeted by a sweet melody that Keade was playing on the piano. It took her a bit before she noticed me. "Oh hey Shuichi!" She smiled at me. "What are you doing here?"

I took a deep breath and told her everything. Well, most things. Like how Kokichi liked me too and that I knew she liked me too. I said that I didn't know who I liked more. That's when she said something I nearly forgot about.

"You should stay with Kokichi, he is your boyfriend after all." She smiled, but this time it looked fake. One you would expect from Kokichi.

"I just wanted to let you know." I felt so stupid for forgetting that. It still doesn't mean he won, but it would make it easier for us. We could just keep things how it is.

We talked a bit more before I decided to leave. I went to walk around outside, trying to think of what to do.