I Am Not Afraid To Walk This World Alone

Until We Find Our Way In The Dark

M-POV

Me and Luci lay on the bed, side by side, with my head on his chest and my hand on his stomach, my fingers running up and down his muscles. His one hand was on the small of my back, the other twisting my hair between his fingers.

"Micha?" I heard him say, "Micha, I have an idea," Turning my head towards him, I gazed into his dark brown eyes

"Yes? Go on."

"Let's run away together."

"R-Run away?" I stuttered out, baffled by what Lucifer had just said as I sat up my hand still on his stomach, the other behind me for support, "Wh-why? Why would we wanna run away?"

"Get away from all this," Lucifer said, looking up at the ceiling, pursing his lips, "After everything that's happened, with Dean. With Cas. I think we should just get away from it all and run away. Together."

"I can't just abandon my family, Lucifer!" I squeaked, standing up and pulling on my jeans, "I can't just leave them, after everything. You seem to forget that I tried to kill myself. I can't just pack a bag and leave in the middle of the night!" By this point, Lucifer had stood up and pulled his clothes on.

"Who said anything about leaving in the middle of the night?!" Lucifer almost shouted.

"Then that's not 'running away', is it?!" I shouted, walking out of the room, shirtless as my gold chain around my neck swung fitfully across my chest.

"You can say goodbye, Michael," Lucifer said, before following me, "Unlike when you tried to kill yourself, you didn't even say ANYTHING TO ME!" Tears rolled down his cheeks as the words left his mouth.

"I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT YOU, LUCIFER!" I screamed, spinning around to face him.

"How is trying to kill yourself protecting me?!!" The blonde-haired boy screamed back at me, more tears rolling off his chin.

"You don't understand, do you?!" I shouted, walking down the stairs, Lucifer close on my tail, "I already tried to get away from all of this!"

"Killing yourself isn't a way out of all of this, Micha," Lucifer said, quietly, stopping in his tracks.

"It is," I replied, bluntly.

L-POV

"It is," Michael replied without emotion.

"When the lights go out," I sang, quietly, slowly stepping towards Micha, "Will you take me with you?"

"Luci-" Mike began before I promptly silenced him by placing my finger on his lips and using my thumb to brush across his light stubble-covered chin.

"And carry all this broken bone," I continued, using my finger to wipe away a tear that dropped down Michael's cheek, "Through six years down in crowded rooms and highways I call home."

I slipped Mike's fingers between mine and pulled him back up the stairs, into our bedroom.

"Something I can't know 'til now, 'til you pick me off the ground," I took the black-haired boy to the bed and sat him down, our hands clasped together, our eyes locked, "With a brick in hand, your lip-gloss smile, your scraped-up knees."

"Luci-"

"And if you stay, I would even wait all night," I carried on, silencing Michael with a subtle smile and my finger delicately placed on his lips, "Or until my heart explodes, how long? 'Til we find our way in the dark and out of harm. You can run away with me."

I leaned forward and kissed Mike on his chapped lips, "Anytime you want."

"Terrified of what I'd be, as a kid from what I've seen," I stood up and walked to the window, drawing back the curtains, squinting in the setting sun, "Every single day when people try and put the pieces back together, just to smash them down."

I felt Mike come up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and pressing his nose into my hair.

"Turn my headphones up real loud," I smiled, leaning my head on Mike's shoulder as he sucked lightly on the skin of my neck, "I don't think I need them now, 'cause you stopped the noise."

As Mike continued to flick his tongue and graze his teeth across the vein in my neck, I leaned my hands on the window for support before my knees buckled from underneath me.

"And if you stay I would even wait all night, or until my heart explodes," I sang, gaspy and breathing heavily, "How long? 'Til we find our way in the dark and out of harm."

"Mhm, Luci," Mike moaned into my neck as I pressed my hips back into his, enjoying the vibration of his lips on the sensitive skin.

"You can run away with me anytime you want," I finished, feeling Michael step away from me.

"I told you I didn't wanna run away, Lucifer," Mike said, sharply.

"I-I know? I-" I began before Mike cut me off.

"Exactly! So why mention it again?!" Mike screamed, his pale face turning red, "You know what?"

"Wh-what?" I said, quietly. Stupid, stupid question. 

Word of advice : If your super-pissed-off-boyfriend says "you know what?" never ever ever ever and I mean EVER... say what.

"Are you fucking stupid or something?!" He shouted, "You're delusional, Lucifer, you know that? You're delusional. You think that just because I can see and no one else can, that I'm just gonna be your knight in shining armor who will fix everything. Well, guess what? I am done. I'm done. You understand me? I cannot put up with your fucking shit anymore! I give up!"

And then he walked out of the door. Tears rolled down my face as I collapsed to my knees. What have I done?! Again?!