Part 2 of this story. So, my sophomore year of college, I actually ended up having a class with him. Yup! We went to the same college. 😅
Yeah. I gave him a second chance. I was like, "He seems like he's changing, so let me talk to him." But this time, it hurt even more because of how wrong I was.
He not only did the same things to me, but a little kink was involved. Yup. It took me a while to look at potato-chip-clippers the same. 😓
Thankfully though, I ended things with him faster than the first time. But I still tried to forgive him, even after that!
Thankfully, my twin @jennymatherne02 talked some sense into me. She was like, "You're trying to ask someone who raped you to apologize for their actions." And finally. .I let him go for good.
But guys. .it took me basically 2-3 years to let him go! Someone who was hurting me both physically and mentally!
When I look back on it. .I didn't deserve that type of treatment. I should have never tried to reconcile with someone who has never even apologized to me, even after the MANY chances I gave him. But I think my biggest mistake. .was never telling anyone about it. Not until years after these things happened.
I was ashamed and scared that no one would believe me, especially my family. He put such a good act in front of them, that I thought they wouldn't believe me.
But I was wrong. My family has helped me through my trauma so much. They make me feel loved every day, and tell me they wish I would have said something sooner. 😌💜
But if you are or were in a relationship like this, please, know that you don't deserved to be treated like this. I know it's hard to get out. Hell! It took me years to do it, but you deserve so much better. 😌💜 You are worth so much more, so please, if you are in this relationship, tell someone. If they don't believe you, then, quite frankly, screw them. You don't need someone who won't give you the time of day when you have others that love you so much. 😌💜
Anyway, I want you all to know that you are so loved, even if you may not always see it. There are people around you who will treat you preciously. 💜
Anyway, I love you guys and thank you for being here. 💜
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