After thinking more about what happened yesterday, I realized why I was so down.
Have I told you guys my dream? My definition of success? To me, it feels like something that shouldn't be as hard to achieve as it is.
Honestly, I want a family and to always have a joyous life. That's it. And when it comes to the latter, I think I'm doing a pretty great job!
I'm happier than I used to be. I have WAY more good days than bad!
With that being said, though, I honestly have this bad habit of comparing myself to others. I see people about my age or people even younger than me being very happy with their families while me. .I honestly feel very behind.
Heck! All of my sisters my age are either dating or are married while I'm still single! Honestly, part of me is jealous, but the bigger part of me knows that it is ultimately my choice, so I don't have the right to be.
I want to be in a relationship. I want to get married. I want a family, but I want the type of relationships my oldest sister and twin have. (Sorry, I just don't know a lot about my other sister's boyfriend yet, but he seems good. 😊)
I just. .don't want to settle. I don't want to settle with someone who will not value me as much as I do them. I've done that in the past, and don't want to sacrifice my needs and my dreams to please others.
In fact, the next relationship I am in, I want my partner, (regardless of a guy or girl), and I to stand as equals. I hope my partner will love himself/herself as much as I love myself so that we can just focus on loving each other. I honestly. .want the next relationship to be my last because I would hope I would have the confidence to find someone I'd want to spend the rest of my life with. 😌💜
But, until then, I will keep learning how to be a better aunt so I can be a good mother one day. I will keep loving myself and continue to keep bettering myself so that one day, I will be ready to make my dreams come true. ☺️💜
Anyway, I had to get that off my chest. 😅 I hope you guys have a great day! I love you guys, and hope you love or will come to love yourselves, too. 💜💜💜
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