𝕿𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖓𝖘 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕽𝖔𝖘𝖊 | 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚘𝚗𝚎

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚃𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎

𝙺𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚎'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

          I looked at the judges and all my nerves came crashing back down. Another thing about me is that I'm shy and have stage fright....if you haven't realized that yet.

          "Hi. What's your name?" Cheryl asked me sweetly. I think she could tell that I was really nervous. Who am I kidding?! Of course she could tell!

          "Hello. My name is Kayelee Clarke," I say shyly while thanking the heavens for not making me stutter.

          "Who have you brought with you today?"

          "Uh, I actually came here alone but I met a wonderful family earlier in the waiting room who are now supporting me backstage," I answered smiling. I look at Cheryl who had a shocked looked on her face and at Simon who is now staring at me curiously.

          "May I ask why you came alone? Do they not support you?" Simon asked.

          "It's not that, it's just...it's just..," I close my eyes and take a deep breath before continuing. "I lost my mum, dad and brother. It's just me left. Um, my mum died giving birth to me, lost my dad in a tragic accident and so did my brother, Kaleb. I'm here to fulfill my brother's wish which is for me to audition. He's my best friend and this is the least I can do to give back to him," I replied as I heard the crowd cheering. I hadn't realized that tears had fallen and I immediately wipe them off. I don't know what came over me but, it made me feel lighter. I looked at the judges as they also had tears in their eyes.

          "Alright. What song have you chosen love? And why?" Louis asked after a while.

          "Jealous by Labrinth because to me, I interpret it as me being jealous that my mum, dad and brother are all reunited in heaven while I'm left behind here," I responded.

         Simon just nods at me signaling that I could start. I hear the track playing and I close my eyes feeling the passion burn inside of me as I dedicate this moment to my brother.

♫ I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin ♫

          I feel the nerves disappearing as I start singing the song. I block out the audience and focus on myself and Kaleb.

♫ It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me ♫

          As I start to sing the bridge, I remember everything. My loving Papa and my best friend, Kaleb. Tears flow out of my eyes, but I don't care because all I can think of is that this moment is for Kaleb. I sing with everything that I have and focus on the passion stirring inside of me.

♫ As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
I-I-It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me ♫

As I sing the last note, I open my eyes and the tears came down harder as I see the judges and the crowd standing. They are all clapping their hands and the judges have tears in their eyes, even Simon! My entire body was shaking as I say to myself in my head, 'I did it Kaleb.'

As the crowd settled and the judges sat back down, I put on a huge smile on my face; feeling proud of what I did and happy for fulfilling Kaleb's wish.

"Kayelee, I... That was just amazing, love. I-I can't even... You know what, all I will say to that performance is absolutely incredible. I mean, you brought me to tears love. Well done Kayelee," Cheryl says emotionally, struggling to keep her tears in.

"Thank you so much," I said quietly.

"Kayelee. I mean.. seriously! You delivered a fantastic performance. I could feel the passion radiating off of you and I absolutely think that your brother is smiling down at you right now darling," Simon said making tears fall out of my eyes again. "You are a real talent Kayelee. On top of that, you look stunning. I just hope that someday, you can see that for yourself," he continued. I just nodded in response, still emotional.

"Your voice is amazing! I-it doesn't have a limit, honestly. You're what I would call an all-around singer Kayelee. All you lack is self confidence. I'm certain that Kaleb is extremely proud love," Louis said with a big smile on his face. He had tears running down his cheeks; who knew he would be such a softy!

The crowd cheered and clapped for me once again as I bowed before going backstage.

"That was amazing!" Harry said spinning me around in his arms.

"Thank you, Harry. I did it," I responded, looking him in the eyes.

After thanking and hugging the Styles, I got in a cab and went to a hotel which I pre-booked the night before. I got my key card and entered the room. It was decent; it had a king sized bed, a telly, a bathtub in the big bathroom, but the best part of the room was the floor to ceiling window. I stood in front of the window, taking in the night view of London. It was looked strange compared to my little town. Though the cab ride from here was only an hour, it was much different. In my town it was surrounded by trees and very little buildings while in London, it is basically the opposite. I'm not complaining though, London is such a beauty.

I talked to Pappi for a while before taking a shower. He congratulated me and told me to enjoy my stay here. I stepped into the bathtub relaxing at the feeling of water.

'I made it,' I say in my head, closing my eyes. I stayed in the tub for at least 2 hours. What can I say, I like the water.

After drying myself, I put on one of Kaleb's shirt and my volleyball shorts. Kaleb's shirts are the best things to wear, it just smells and feels like he's hugging me. I knew I was gonna strip of the shirt later tonight as it would make me feel uncomfortable when sleeping, but I didn't care. I'm not going to be yet after all. I ordered some room service noticing how hungry I was. I only ate 2 pancakes and drank a cup of tea which I all puked out. Oh and by the way it's already 8:36 PM. I munch down my order and watched a bit of shows on the telly before crashing down on my bed. I look at my screensaver and smile at the sight of Kaleb and me together hugging.

"I love you Kaleb," I say before letting the darkness succumb me into a peaceful sleep.