𝕿𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖓𝖘 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕽𝖔𝖘𝖊 | 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚘𝚗𝚎

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙵𝚒𝚟𝚎

𝙺𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚎'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

It's 12 PM right now and I'm eating a Caesar salad for lunch. I'm really nervous for bootcamp today but at the same time I'm excited. I don't really know what to expect.

I finished my lunch and looked into my suitcase. I had already taken a shower and was ready to change. I decided to wear black high waisted sweats, a cropped army green jumper with a tight white shirt inside and low white Chuck Taylors to finish off the look. I hope they wouldn't make us dance because I absolutely dreaded it even though I'm not really bad at it. It just makes me feel insecure when I dance.

I finally gained the courage to walk out of my hotel room and go back to the stadium where bootcamp would be held. I picked up my backpack and phone, hailing a cab to drive me there. I anxiously rubbed my sweaty palms on my jeans as we rode to the stadium. I just hope and pray that Louis or Harry would stick with me. Oh, another thing about me.... I'm socially awkward.

Right as I walked in, I saw Harry talking to someone and patiently waited for him to notice me. I didn't want to interrupt their conversation. I looked around and saw most of the girl showed a lot of skin. By a lot I mean they only wore sports bra and booty shorts, while I am here all wrapped up. I mentally sigh and envy them for their confidence.

"Penny for your thoughts?" A voice startled me making me drop my bag. I looked up and saw Harry grinning. He laughed at my reaction and picked up my bag.

"So, are you just gonna keep staring or are you gonna give me hug?" He said with a cheeky grin. I laugh and mentally facepalmed myself before giving him a hug.

"I'm sorry I startled you, Kayelee. Anyways, wanna go on stage together? It's starting soon," Harry suggested. Thank God for Harry!

"That would me amazing!" I replied as we walked together on stage.

Simon and Louis (Walsh) soon arrived and explained what we were gonna do today while I just basically hid behind Harry. Just to my luck, we were doing dancing today! At least they promised not to eliminate anyone today. I felt really out of place as I got separated with Harry to learn the girl's choreography. I picked it up pretty fast but lost it as I saw the girls executing it much better than I did with their fit bodies. I mentally sighed as I walked backstage to drink water for break time. I slipped down the stairs being my clumsy self, but thankfully somebody caught me. I look up at the person who caught me with a smug look on their face.

"Well, well, well, I guess you just can't keep away from SUPERMAN!" Louis yelled putting me down. I laughed and thanked Louis.

"Is something bothering you Kays?" Louis asked me looking concerned. I continued to walk to my bag as he was following behind me.

          "No, I'm alright," I lied. I didn't want to tell him because my reason would sound stupid.

          "Stop lying! Tell me!" He said loudly. I turned to him and told him to be quiet. Jeez, this boy needs to control his volume.

          "Alright! I-I'm just not comfortable dancing in front of people," I said looking down.

          "Well, love, you gotta suck it up if you don't want to get eliminated. But hey, I can't dance either but I sure as hell am going to perform my best because I want to go through," Louis told me sincerely. He was being serious for the first time.

          "Okay. I'll take your advice. Thank you, Lou," I said hugging him.

          After I drank water I came back up stage with Louis to practice the dance. The genre of dance wasn't really working for me, so I was dancing pretty bad. We were then told to clear the center stage and were called by group to perform. Once it was my groups turn, I was shaking so much. Thank God I didn't have a panic attack! I performed the dance awkwardly because I was really intimidated and shy at the people watching me. We were then asked to switch rows, so now I was in front. I looked at Simon and he was looking at me. It just made me more stressed out! I performed it again and was relieved when it was over. I stood by Harry as we watched the other groups perform.

          "You alright? You're shaking, love," Harry said beside me putting his arm around my shoulder. No shit Harry!

          "I'm perfectly fine!" I said to him sarcastically.

          "Stop worrying! Just relax. You did great, Kayelee! Plus, nobody's getting eliminated today," Harry whispered trying to calm me. It worked though after he reminded me that no one would get eliminated.

          After all of the groups finished performing. Simon then told us he had an announcement.

          "Remember when I told you that no one was getting eliminated?" He asked us making me nervous. We all nodded and I knew what was coming.

          "Well, I was lying. Half of you are going home today," Simon announced. I knew it was coming but it still shocked and scared me. Everyone in the room panicked as he started to call out names.

          "And the last person leaving is..." I think I'm about to chunder. I was just waiting for my name to get called. "Is Briana. Thank you and that's all for today. Also, don't forget your songs for tomorrow," he continued making me sigh in relief.

          Louis and I met backstage again after I said goodbye to Harry and decided to go to a Park to celebrate. When we got there Louis immediately dropped his bag and chased the pigeons.

          "KEVIN! I MISSED YOU!" He yelled catching the attention of people. I don't even want to ask why he calls the pigeons Kevin. I laughed and threw my bag beside his, running after him like a lunatic.

          I felt a hard squeeze inside my chest but ignored it. It used to always happen when I would jog or play volleyball. After a little, we laid down on the grass and talked.

          "Hey, Kays?" Louis asked beside me as I replied with a simple 'mhm'.

          "How come you never mention your parents or siblings, only your grandad?" He asked oblivious of my past. I debated on whether or not I should tell Louis but I knew he wouldn't judge me and after all, I already told the whole world about it during my audition.

         "Oh uhm.. that's because they're no longer with me, Lou. My mum died giving birth to me, my dad got shot and my brother got into an accident with a drunken bastard," I told him as tears welled up in my eyes. By now he was staring at me looking sad. I really didn't want pity.

          "Kays, I'm sorry I brought that up and made you upset. But I'm sure that they're proud of you," he said as I looked at him.

          "It's okay, Lou, you didn't know. And, I do hope that they are," I said starring back at the sky.

          "They are! Now, come on. Let's get some candy floss!" He shrieked like a little girl. He has already cheered me up!

          We got our candy flosses and started to eat them as we sat on the bench talking about the song we would perform tomorrow for bootcamp. I decided to sing 'Brother' by Kodaline, dedicating it to Kaleb. Lou and I promised to cheer each other on backstage tomorrow. After hugging and bidding our goodbyes, I went back to the hotel and chilled for a while before ordering dinner. I ate my pasta and video called Pappi. It was so funny seeing him trying to use it! I then took a shower and changed into comfy clothes. I stood in front of my mirror, practicing the song for tomorrow. I hope and pray to God that it would be enough. Tomorrow, it will be decided who would make the cut and go to the judges' houses. I slept at 11 PM and got up at 8 AM immediately practicing the song again.

'I can do this!' I repeated in my head for the millionth time.