𝙅𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙬𝙤 𝙤𝙛 𝙪𝙨 ✯ 𝙢.𝙥

20: narrative

"Mel open your damn door" i heard Ale knock on it harshly. I took a deep breath before getting up and unlocking it for him.
He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly.
"What's wrong?" He asked when he finally let go, even though I'm sure he already knew.

I walked to my bed before answering. "I thought we had something going on" I tried saying, but I couldn't without starting to sob again. "But apparently we're just friends"

I made an annoyed face.

He laid down next to me, once again wrapping his arms around me.

"It's Mattia, you know what he's like"

"I know, but I just hoped he had changed" I snuggled into Ales side, hiding my face in the crook of his neck. He stroked my hair peacefully while my sobs started once again.

When I finally looked up there was mascara stained on his bright neon green hoodie.

"He's such an idiot" I started saying, suddenly rage filling me instead of sadness.
"He made me fall in love with him, spending ALL my time with him"

I started grabbing a pillow before continuing. "I helped him deal with Jenna for fuck sake. I HELPED HIM THROUGH HIS HARD TIMES"

I were now screaming as I threw the pillow through my room, hitting some of my wall decor.
"I FUCKING LOVED HIM, BUT DID HE SEE ME AS ANYTHING MORE THAN A DISTRACTION TO GET OVER JENNA?"
Tears now again started to roll down my cheeks.

"Probably not. I'm nothing to him" I whispered.

"Don't say that" Ale tried comforting me. I sat down again and he quickly wrapped his hands around my neck.
"You should talk to him" he mumbled into my hair.

I nodded silently.
We sat there for a long time, my sobs coming and going until I had no more tears left to cry.

"Thank you" I softly whispered, my voice hoarse.

"Always" he kissed the top of my head.

We watched a movie and got our mom to order some Chinese food for us.
It made me forget all of what had happened.

Some will say I'm overreacting.
But when you actually love someone, and find out that you're just friends, that shit hurts.

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The clock had passed 1 am and Ale had just left to go sleep. I checked my phone, seeing 37 missed call from Mattia.

I decided calling him.

"Mel" his voice were raspy.

"Mhmm"

"You know I didn't mean it"

"Oh is that so? 'Cause I think you made it pretty clear that we were just friends"  I couldn't help but raise my voice at him.

"Mel listen to me. We've never talked about what we are. I thought we were just living it"

"You know what I think?" A tear slowly rolled down my cheek. "I was just a distraction, weren't I?"
He didn't answer me.
"So you could stop thinking about Jenna. I was there at the perfect time. I were sweet and I'd listen to your problems. The perfect target, am I right?" I snapped at him.

"Mel that's not how it is. In the beginning it was just flirting, you said that yourself. But lately we've been more together and I've really enjoyed your company. I'm just not good at emotions and saying the right things"

"Mattia Polibio I would scream at you right now, if it weren't for the whole house sleeping"

"Amelia, please don't do this right now"

"Do what? 'Cause just the other day I weren't even aloud to talk to Mark, because I was 'yours" I spat, mocking his voice in the last part.
"But I'm not sure if FRIENDS can decide who you talk to"

"Amelia I love you, alright"

"You.. you what?" I almost dropped the phone.

"I love you. I've been wanting to say it to you but I've been scared you didn't feel the same way. I want to spend every second of every day with you"

The words made me soft. This was all too much. He couldn't play me like that.
"I'm sorry Mattia, but if you loved me, you should have shown. I've been played before, and I don't want to be once again"

Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I ended the call.
I cried my self to sleep that night.
Thinking of him. Of what I thought we were. And his empty words.

I loved Mattia Polibio.
But maybe it weren't meant to be?

Marys thoughts
Ik ik that she might be overreacting a little 🤏🏽 but it's all building up the big socialbash dramaaa☕️
Once again, tysm for all the reads! It's going crazy fast rn!