This sensation was different than any I had ever experienced before, I'm not even for sure I could fathom the thought to explain it myself. I finally decided on the feeling of love. I couldn't describe it but it was this general term everyone seemed to overuse too often. This wasn't one of those times, I was positive this could be the only thing to explain it. It settled me a little that I had solved that little mystery of 'figure out the emotion'. I don't know what to do with this newly found information, I don't just want to go around school boasting that I had a new love in mind, especially since I barely knew her, but should I even tell my friends? Wait... I don't have any. That's right, when I transferred to this stupid new magnet school that my little school doesn't filter into I had to lose all of my previous friends. I guess I'm just one of those floating friends; the ones nobody actually cares about but kinda makes small talk with every once in a while. Whatever.
I think I'm just going to sleep, maybe hibernate if I can. Schools crushing me like a mouse in a mousetrap and I don't even have any friends to bitch about my shitty life to. I'll setttle with procrasting my homework even longer and watching Miranda Sings and Troye Sivan on youtube. I can't even pay attention to the endless puns of Miranda, all I can do is think about Jade. She's my everything and yet I'm her nothing.
I'm her nothing?
I'm her nothing.
I looked down at the floor. I hadn't even noticed that. I was so busy obsessing over her I couldn't even realize that I have proabably never even crossed her mind. Sorrow filled me. How could I care about her so much already and- and she doesn't care about me at all. I'm so used to being nothing, why does this hurt me so bad now? Thats a question I don't have the answer to. I am used to being nothing, aren't I? I'm that guy that doesn't make girls look twice at him. I'm that guy that's not really good at anything. I'm not musical, I'm not athletic, I'm not theatric. I'm just that scrawny, screw-up boy that can't seem to get his damn life together. Maybe its time to. I'm fed up with being that person. I want to be that guy that makes girls fall head over heels for him, I want to be that guy that gets the girl. Get the girl. That's it. She might be out of my league but if I do it it right I can pull this thing off. I'm gonna make Jade fall in love with me. I don't know how, but I'm going to.
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Wonderland.
RandomSo young. So innocent. It was all taken away from him. He was in a fast paced life where growing up fast was his only option. A world full of hatred did he live in, but he was used to it. He seemed as any other 15 year old boy might, but was he...
