My Story

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I love my hoodie. It's very warm and soft. I can put many things in the pocket without worry that they will fall out. This is my first one I have ever received( got it on Christmas) and I really love it.

Most of the time I can bees seen with it on, regardless of the weather. I'm probably going to keep wearing it until I wear it out. I'm okay with that. I think clothes should be worn until you can't get any other uses from it.

I recently found that the hoodie has been helping me realize issues in my life that I didn't have much awareness for. Just like a ton of other human beings in the world, I don't like how my body looks. I'm getting better about not criticizing my body as much as I used to.

Nevertheless, it's still pretty difficult. How I look still bothers me often. I know that people love me for me, but I can't help and think that they are talking about me( which is stupid bc I know I have amazing people surrounding me that truly care for me).

Since getting the hoodie, it has been my security blanket. Not just for body issues, but I used to self-harm. Those were not fun times. I'm okay now :) No one really pays attention to the hoodie because I'm in high school and no one actually gives a sh*t about what your wearing. But

Even though that might be the case, I do give a sh*t with what I'm wearing. I don't want it to be too tight and highlight things I don't like about myself therefore making me feel worse, BUT I don't want it to be too open because it's exposing parts I like about me but it gets the wrong attention. My solution? Throwing the damn hoodie back on,

Covering up all the parts I don't want people to see. This is a cycle that really gets annoying after some time.

There was gonna be more to that little rant, but I got tired of writing and want to move on.

person: *coughs*

Literally the world atm: CORONAVIRUS!!!

I'm not gonna y'all about the news part and all the statistics that are being thrown out there for the pandemic. Go look it up on ur own time. I just want to talk about the part I'm involved in which is BEING STUCK AT HOME. WITH A SIBLINGS.

My school said last week Friday we weren't going to school this week due to the concerns around the whole situation.

Okay, staying home sound good with me! But... we have DLD( digital learning days) . I hate DLD because as much ch as I'd rather be away from the idiots in the class, I really don't want to stay home in isolation.

Today starts day 3 of being at home . Also, I just want to see my gf, friends and teachers that I actually like. Is that too much to be asking for?!?

I get the concern, but it also threw off my second semester. We were all in the middle of testing when they canceled school. We also had a spring concert we were practicing for and now it might not happen( hopefully it will.)

It is 12:42 a.m.. I currently don't have anything else I want to talk about. To sum it up, still kinda hate my body but I'm working on it, I miss my girlfriend, and I want to go back to school.

Stay safe everyone and I hope you have a good night/day/evening. ❤️