anonymous love simkus

yabai

yabai is a word meaning reckless or dangerous in behavior or in one's self
一個千円のクッキーなんてやばい

many people do reckless things when it comes to love

i always thought they were crazy,

that i'd never do that

but here i am

writing you these letters

when you might not even like me

but one can hope right?

that is why i am doing this

purposefully being yabai just because i like you

my past self would say it was crazy

or that i was loosing my mind

but i know that its not crazy,

that i'm not loosing my mind

you make being yabai worth it

even when it would be dangerous,

dangerous for anyone to know that i am the one writing these

i hope you don't minds me being yabai for just one moment

but i just want to say

that to me,

girls are like small pebbles on the ground

some people really like them

others like me, don't

but boys,

boys are like sakura petals falling through the air on a cool spring breeze

some people love the soft breeze

but other hate the cold

i hope that like me,

you like the breeze

and not so much the pebbles on the ground

if you hate me now,

i'll know by your expression when you walk into history

i stared at the note and felt my heart flutter as i read the note. at least i knew it wasn't north, or a girl for that matter.

i continued my trek down the hall as my mind went to the possibility that simon wrote it. i mean, he has like a million pens, who's to say none are pink, he's a boy, i mean he looks pretty gay. i laughed as josh asked me what i was laughing about.

i just told him that it was something in the note and walked into history. simon wasn't it his seat and i sighed before continuing to walk to my seat. before i could sit down though i felt someone push an earbud into my ear.

I turned around to see simon smiling at me as we continued to walk to our seats. least to say it was a weird song, but quite funny to listen to.

we sat down and jammed out to the music. i realized that the longer we hung out, the more simon listened to weird music, which comes to show that he's comfortable around me, i think.

we had a sub again who also didn't care what we did so we just started talking about random things the whole period.

"and that is how i managed to make our neighbors move because of a watermelon" we both laughed as i finished my story. simon was trying to stop himself from having another laughing fit and struggling to breath properly.

after we both calmed down simon started up the conversation again. "so i was curious if you wanted to hang out after school today, and after football practice? my place is really small and not that nice but if you cant do your house mine is fine too"

"hell ya! ooh, and you can sit in the bleachers during practice so you won't have to go all the way home, just to leave like an hour later"

he agreed as the bell rang and simon walked up to daniel, presumably to tell him that he wouldn't be joining him after school. daniel smiled but after simon walked away he glared at me as he walked out.

the rest of the day dragged on i awaited practice to finally come. once the final bell rang i got changed and found simon in the halls we walked to practice. he sat down in the bleachers as i got ready to practice.

about five minutes into practice north sat down next to simon but i brushed it off and continued on anyway, i was to excited about hanging out with simon to really care.

next chapters gonna be a bit different but then after that it will go back to normal! sorry i haven't updated recently, i have no excuse but lack of motivation sorry!