~YES I AM DEPRESSED.... and so this is what I am writing... don't read if you can't deal with sad stuff... because I can't too~
You get home from a meeting to see Gray on the couch,
"Hi babe." I said joining him on it, I wrap my arms around him, he doesn't say anything he was quiet, too quiet.
"Are you okay?" I ask
"Yes." he replies dryly.
I scan his face, he looks down at me "What?" He asks sharply
"You seem tired and I know there is something bothering you." I say
"Well what if it is? can you leave me for a second? can't I have time myself anymore?" He yell asked
"You should have just said so." I reply geoing upstairs kissing his forehead knowing f I don't do that he may think I am upset with him
I enter our room and see it cleaned, our bed was made and everything.. I don't remember making it. Gray...?
I changed into a sweatshirt and pajama shorts, I go downstairs to cook dinner, Grayson was on his phone, I went into the kitchen as I worked I felt his eyes on me, I could feel him watch my every move. "Alexa please play Kid Cudi." "Playing A Kid Named Cudi."
I slowly bummed to the lyrics as dinner was getting ready when it was ready, I took mine and Grays plate and walked to the couch,
"Here you go." I say
"I am not hungry." He mumbled
I sighed leaving him alone, I go to the kitchen and eat alone which I absolutely hate.After I was done I dropped my plate in the sink... I'll do the dishes later
"Grayson here, please have something." I try to persuade
"I said I am not hungry." He said in his 'I am trying to stay calm voice'
" I don't care, I am not letting you sleep hungry, here." I urge
"Why can't you und-
"I understand perfectly you had a bad day and want to be alone but I am your girlfriend and room mate so if you care about me a little bit, you'll have dinner and now I am going to leave you alone." I say placing the plate on the coffee table and walking upstairs
I laid down on our bed after washing my hands and brushing my teeth, I was worried, I wanted to hug him so he could be happy, I didn't want him that distant from me, I want him to hug me when he has a bad day not push me away, but I have learned from Gray that he doesn't like making people sad and if he pushes you away is because he doesn't want to make you sad. I love him so much and I hope he knows that.
I open a book and start reading.. "is he even going to come upstairs?" I think to myself
Just as I thought that, I heard footsteps coming upstairs. Thank god.
He enters our room, he takes his shirt off and enters the washroom after a few minutes the shower started, I knew he was going to be a while so I went downstairs to check if he ate or not and he did, he also did the dishes, which made me want to hug him.. At the end of the day, Grayson is Grayson.
I walk upstairs and get in bed falling asleep
~Narrators POV~
Grayson got out of the shower and saw you asleep on the bed, he awed at the sight of you cuddled and cozy into the blanket, he got in next to you and wrapped his arms around you, he was so mad at himself for yelling at you and pushing you away when all you did was care about him, he kissed your neck and closed his eyes, you turned around stil sound asleep and rested your head on his chest.
He smiled kissing the top of your head and he fell asleep too.
~Next morning~
You woke up to the smell of pancakes, you got up stretching and walking downstairs after brushing your teeth.
You walk downstairs knowing it was Gray in the kitchen you were still nervous and hoping he would not scream at you in the morning, you usually would hug him from behind and hiss his back tattoo but today you gave him space and made coffee for the both of you,
Grayson looked at you as he flipped the pancake, he felt awful, he turned the stove off and sneaked up behind yo wrapping his arms tightly around your waist.
"GRAY!" You yell as you were hanging in the air, he attacks your face with kisses, "MMM.." You humble trying to move away.
"GRAYYYYY! PUT ME DOWNNNNN!!" You say childishly
"No." He says
"mhhh." You groan and he laughs placing you on top of the counter.
You look at him laughing and smile. "I am glad you're happy today." You tell him
He bites his lip then wraps his arms around your waist. "I am so sorry baby." He says sadly
"Why? Don't be sorry." You say hugging his neck
"I was so mean to you, all you were doing is being a wonderful girlfriend and this is the thanks I gave you." He mumbled against my neck
"Hey, Look at me, Who am I? Your girlfriend. I dated you knowing you're human. and humans have bad days, you had one and I am always going to be here for you when you walk through that door, and even if you yell at me, push me away, I will be here for you because when you asked me if I would be your girlfriend, and I said Yes, that was a commitment, and I am going to keep that commitment till the last breath you hear me?" I blab cupping his cheek, he placed his hand over my hand
"TIME FOR KISSES!" HE YELLS picking me up again as he drops me on top of the couch and bombards me with kisses.
"I love you." he says inbetwwen them
"I love you more." I say
"Not possible."
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is it wrong that I keep thinking about the coffee and pancakes while you and Gray do it?
