Chapter 30

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Chapter 30 (Alex's Pov)

"Alex you shouldn't just leave like this." Emma pleaded as I layed my suitcase on the bench waiting for the train.

"And leave how Emma! Tell him I'm to much of a bitch to actually let him know I want to achieve my dreams! Tell him I'm leaving and not coming back?" I yelled. She looked at me in disbelief.

"I wanted you to tell him that you were leaving! The Alex I knew wouldn't of even for one second thought about taking the easy way out! She wouldn't make someone that loved her find out She left through friends! DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT HOW HE FEELS?" Emma yelled back.

I looked at her and tears went down my cheek.

"Of course I care. That's the problem Em I care way to much, if he tells me he wants me to stay I'm gonna give in . It easier this way." I said truthfully.

"Your not my best friend." Emma said coldly and left.

"Emma!" I yelled she didn't turn around she kept walking.

I sat on the bench and thought about what Emma said. She was right I am taking the easy way out and that's not something I would do. I pulled my phone out and texted Chase.
Alex: Hey can you meet me at the subway?
Chase: Sure. But why the subway?
Alex: Just need to tell you something.

I waited for thirty minutes until I saw Chase walk in with his hands in his pocket staring at the ground. I saw girl's around him light up as they saw him. I couldn't get jealous. He's not gonna be mine. But you want him to be.

I watched at Chase walked over to me staring at my suitcase.

"Vacation?" He asked amused.

"No." I said.

"Friend or family visiting?" He asked looking around.

"No. Chase I actually wanted to tell you something I've been wanting to tell you for awhile now I just couldn't say it because I thought it be easier if I left. Remember when I told you what I wanted to be?" I asked him. He noded confused.

"New York did offer me a scholarship in fashion designing and I plan on going. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you." I said with tears. "God I shouldn't even be trying to make things right. I'm a terrible person."

"Alex I'm not standing in between your dreams so yeah you can go I'll be sure to visit on the weekend." He smiled. Hardest part.

"No Chase you can't. I know it won't work, a long distance relationship. Like I know you want to go to college and be a doctor or lawyer. Please go do that." I pleaded.

"So what your just leaving and giving up on us?" Chase snapped. Love, hatred, plead, guilt, shock, and care were all in his eyes.

I shut my eyes.

"Yes. Yes. Yes. That's exactly what I want. I want you to have a normal life." I said trying not to fall apart.

"Not have a normal life Alex I love you why the hell would I want a normal life? We knew we'd face problems when we started so why give up?" He said through gritted teeth.

"No ones giving up Chase." I say and open my eyes.

"You are! You are Alex your giving up! Because you think it won't work! Is that how much you think of me?" He yelled.

"No! I love you Chase and you know it!" I scream with tears.

"No you don't! If you did their wouldn't of even been a decision between picking college or me! I'd pick you any day but now I can finally see your choice." He yelled and I saw tears actually forming in his eyes.

"If you loved me you wouldn't make me choose!" I screamed.

"And if you loved me you'd actually figure out how this could work but you didn't. I see where we both stand now." He says. I watch as he walks away. My heart shattered into millions pieces. I love Chase I can't let him walk away. But I have to for mine and his sake. Tears poured out of my eyes as I sat on the bench.

God everyone hates me. Great.

I look up and see Emma.

"Alex I'm sorry. I saw what you did." She said sincerely.

"Don't apologize you were right. I just wish I could hug Chase one last time." I say and she hugs me.

I hug her tight.

"Alex go to New York and follow your dream." Emma said. I smiled, I just wish it was Chase that said that not Emma.

After hugging Emma I saw Dylan. I walked over to him.

"I'm gonna miss bugging you." I say.

"And I'm gonna miss you." Dylan said.
Chase's Pov

I walked home angry.

All this time she didn't even love me. What the fucks wrong with me? You loved her.

I ran into someone and knocked them over

"I'm sorry." I say politely even though I was frustrated.

"Its alright." She said. I started walking.

"Wait I'm Taylor." She said.

"Not interested just got out of a bad relationship so if you'll excuse me I'm gonna go hope and mope about life." I said seriously.

"Your funny." She said and smiled.

"Yeah I'm just gonna leave now."
Alex's Pov

I stared out the window of the train. I just made the biggest mistake of my life. I lost the most important person to me.
'We had a beautiful magic love affair well it's sad a beautiful tragic love affair."

The end °°°§°°°
Okay guys theirs a sequel don't worry. Its called Lost Love. I hope you guy's enjoyed the book as much as I enjoyed writing.
' Haley and Kat. :(
P.s. Ending is sad.

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