My Dom or My Mate?

Chapter 12

--Broken Promises & Begging--

Last night was wonderful. I finally slept with Soul and oh wow!

He wasn't as good as Dean or Holden but it was still intense and he was so soft and romantic.

Rose petals all over the bed, candles everywhere and fizzy grape juice--a pregnant craving--with chocolate covered strawberries!

It's as though he read my mind, followed my heart and was making up for all the shit I'd been through over the past few months.

In the middle of the night, I'd also woken up to fluttery kicks in my stomach!

It was the most amazing feeling!

I get my first scan next week as my doctor couldn't fit me in for one until then.

The idea of seeing my baby for the first time is so exciting and heartwarming.

Would it be a girl or boy?

Would they be Alpha blood or not? Thus meaning Holden's or Dean's?

I couldn't care less either way. They're both my mates and they both rejected me at the same time.

I thank the heavens I didn't let them mark me or I'd have their emotions, thoughts and feelings. I'd have the link with them, which includes feeling them when they fuck someone else.

At least I can stay naive.

That's all that really keeps me going.

Don't get me wrong, Soul is amazing, thoughtful, generous and caring but he isn't my mate.

I may have never wanted a mate but at least I had found them before losing them.

As the saying goes: It's better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all.

Right now, I am cuddled up on the sofa.

Soul is out meeting some old friends this evening, so I'm having a relaxing evening to myself. This consists of:

-Sofa

-TV

-Diet cola

-A large pepperoni pizza

-My weight in cookie dough ice cream.

Lush!

I'm in front of the TV and gorging on a tub of ice cream, huddled up in a thick fleecy blanket.

I feel content and relaxed.

Safe and warm.

Me.

My evening alone is halted by a knock at my front door.

"Who the fuck could that be?" I sigh, curling the duvet around me and stomping out with a sour look on my face to the front door.

I pull it open, and start sprouting off. "Whatever it is, it better be good!" I snap before looking up.

My eyes widen, and my wolf wakes up and stares as far out as me.

"What the fuck do you two want?" I snap. "You have no right turning up here after what you put me through!"

Both of my mates lower their heads with ashamed looks in their faces.

So they bloody well should!

"I'm sorry Lizzie. We need to speak to you! It's urgent!" Holden says softly, before going all Alpha business on me.

I roll my eyes. "What's so important that you're here gone 10 at night?!"

"It's the guy you're seeing..." Dean answers this time.