Broken Mates

Chapter 04

                 
               I WILL HURT YOU

"W-what?" A tear roll down her left eye unconsciously, her mind was fuzzing, ears were buzzing, her eyesight blurry by the tears. She felt like she was floating in the air, staring straight into nothing, her body stiff like statue. The only thing that she could felt was the pain in her heart. Namjoon last words were like a sword that went through her heart, making her numb. She heard talking but she couldn't make out a single word. She knew the person infront of her was speaking but she was too deaf to hear out. She knew he was none other than the love of her life, but she was too blind by her own tears to see.

"Yn!" He touch her and she involuntarily flinch and fly away. A sudden wave of hurt and pain wash through his face but he quickly recovered, not wanting to turn away from his words.

"Yn please, this is for you for me-" he was speaking but Yn was not listening, his last words were circling in her head
"I don't want to continue this relation". Her breath shortened and she took one more step back, white dots were appearing in her eyes, and she couldn't stand more so she search for something to hold on. Namjoon notices it and rushed to her, but she flinched away again and this time she landed on her butt.

"Yn-" Namjoon came to her but she stopped him by raising her one hand infront of him.

"Don't" she said and wiped her tears which she didn't even knew were falling. She slowly stand and once she gained her balanced she turned her head to Namjoon

"What did I do wrong?" She asked bitterly, cuz the reason he was giving were not making sense

"You did nothing wrong!" Namjoon ran his finger through his hair and took a sharp breath

"I told you Yn-"

"That's none sense" she cut him off and shook her head at him.

"YOU ALMOST GOT HIT BY THE CAR, DON'T YOU FUKING SEE IT, I WILL KILL YOU, YOU WILL GET KILLED BECAUSE OF ME, BECAUSE OF MY FREAKING STUPID NIGHTMARES"

He is not the one to ever curse, not in front of her nor on her, he never raised his voice in front of her let alone on her. Namjoon was fuming, he was angry as she wasn't understanding him. He took bunch of his hair and harshly pulled on it. Yn was just standing there hot new tears rolling down her cheeks then to her neck and some falling down on the red carpet.

"If you stay with me, your life will be nothing but filled with pain" Namjoon lowered his voice but the anger was still there

"If you stay, if we continue like this you'll be dead in no time" Namjoon couldn't take his last nightmare out of his head and it happened too, she almost got hit by the car if he wasn't there

"I don't care" Yn whispered but Namjoon heard it.

"What?" Namjoon looked at her as he didn't know what she meant

"I don't care if I die, I'm not leaving y-you" she chocked on her own tears but controlled the lump forming in her throat. She didn't want to create a new drama by sobbing her heart out in this situation. Namjoon face softened at her words and tears of his own eyes started falling

"But I care Yn, I don't want to see you getting hurt because of me"

"I WILL GET HURT EITHER WAY, WHY DON'T YOU SEE IT" She cried out and fell on her knees. She didn't want to end this relationship, she didn't want to end her love for him.

"I will not die if I'm next to you, but I'll surely die in the other case, I will die if I'm far away from you" she looked at him under her lashes and pleaded him with her eyes.

Her words hit his head and it was his time to get dizzy. He shook his head to get rid of the sudden overwhelming feeling and bent down to her

"Yn no one dies after someone, these are just things to say. I know you'll be okay, but if you stay next to me then you'll be not" he said while wiping her tears. Yn shook her head like a child and held his hand that was wiping her tears. More tears came falling and she sniffed in his hands

"No please n-no, I love you p-please J-joon, I love y-you, I can't live w-without you" Namjoon felt his heart shatter into million pieces. He brought her to his chest and hold her tightly there. His own warm tears were falling too, they both cried holding onto eachother like as if it were there last. Namjoon knew it was the last hug, but Yn was still hoping he would change his mind. Namjoon was listening to his mind that was saying he took the right decision but his heart was not agreeing, his heart was not allowing him to let her go.

Namjoon pulled her away and cupped her cheeks. He wiped the tears and they stared into eachother eyes.

"Yn we've to do this" his voice was weak and broken, Yn could felt the pain in it. He repeated his words but Yn shook her head again and again making her short hair stick to her wet cheeks. Namjoon just stayed there watching her, hesitating to remove the hair or not, but he didn't. He didn't want to give her false hope.

"I'm sorry Yn" he said and stood up

"Namjoon no- you can't do this to me—plz don't leave me" she cried out but Namjoon didn't budge and turned around. Yn quickly stood up to grab his hand but Namjoon started walking, making her grasp the air in return. She shouted his name but he didn't look back. He took big strides not wanting to look behind at her miserable state. She ran after him to the front porch of her house.

"NAMJOON-" her cries were loud, but
he knew if he looked back he wouldn't be able to leave then. So he got into the car and started the engine. Yn heart stopped at the sound of the car and her mind went fuzzy. He was leaving, he was leaving for real. He is leaving her alone, she ran after the car, running with her shaky legs and blurry vision, she wanted to do everything to stop him. She ran on the the rough road, chilly air hitting her red cheeks, but his car was just going away into the invisible hole where it disappeared from her vision. Her legs gave up on her and she landed on that cold rough road bruising her knees and palms in the process. But she didn't felt the pain, the pain of her heart numbed out everything.