I'm sorry { sequel to Slipping Away}

.02

Ashton's POV
I can't believe I'm having a baby still. I'm starting to show a little more. If only I had someone to show it to. Like Luke.
Why are you thinking like this? he doesn't love you, he never did.
I wish I didn't believe my mind. But since it's my mind, it takes charge of me.
The voices made me do all of this. The voices in my head telling me to jump off the bridge, or cut myself. All my mind. For a while I never thought it was the solution, but now I know it is. It brings my thoughts with it. With the blood running down my arms, my thoughts are seeping with it.
You know you wanted to. I just gave you a little push.
Luke helps the voices vanish. They disappear when I'm with him.
I honestly wanna stay alive. I wanna see what 'my' baby grows up to be. That's like my life goal, the reason I will try and stay a little longer.
It's not Luke's anymore. It's mine. All mine.
A part of me wants to forgive Luke, but parts of me is scared of forgiving. Cause then he will think he can do it again and it will be all good. It won't be all good.
I just miss him, I miss his kind words when I was stressed or sad. He helped me get over my depression. It's safe to say, that Luke saved my life... and I need him.
I ended up in a Starbucks in town.
I pulled out my pone and went to Luke's contact.
I hesitantly pressed call and held it to my ear.
"Ash?" I heard a sad Luke say into the phone.
"Yeah. I'm at the Starbucks in town. If you love me, come. Please" I said playing with my frappe.
"Okay. Okay love, I'm on my way" he said quickly.
After 5 minutes a familiar blonde boy sat across from me.
"Hi" I mumbled.
"Can we not make it awkward. I love you, and I want to be with you forever, and love you and our baby" he said smiling.
"1 chance. That's all, I love you too. But I can only take so much you know?" I said looking down and taking a sip of my drink.
"I know love. I will never hurt you again. I was stupid to do that. I know what I did wrong. I know for a fact I will not do it again"
He's lying. Nobody could ever love you.
I managed to put those thoughts in the back of my mind. And trust Luke. I can trust him. Right?
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A/N
How is it?
I wrote a new book! 'We're my OTP' this one is a Muke fanfic.
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