I'm sorry { sequel to Slipping Away}

.03

Ashton's POV
It's so hard to do things now! I just can't take it. The voices are killing me, literally. I can't handle the pressure.
It's been 2 weeks since me and Luke made up, honestly we've been really close lately.
It's finally the summer. That means no more school... Ever!
"I noticed a little baby bump" Luke said looking at me smiling.
"I started to get it a while ago, it annoys me" I roll my eyes laughing.
"Why? I think it's cute" He said as I blushed.
We were laying on Luke's bed watching tv.
"Do you really think we can get through this?" I asked sighing.
"Yeah. We totally got it. I mean... How hard can it be?" Luke said laughing.
"And tomorrow we have to go to the hospital to find out the gender" I said all excitedly.
"What do you hope for?" Luke asked taking my hand in his and smiling up at me.
"I don't really care. As long as it's breathing" I laughed giving his hand a squeeze.
"Have you ever been to America?" Luke suddenly asked with a smirk.
I have never been to America. And I want to so bad.
"No. But it sounds fun, I totally want to visit there" I said smiling.
"Then lets go" he said standing up.
"Wait right now?" I asked confused.
"No, we have to pack and everything. I'm just hungry" he said as we walked downstairs to the kitchen.
"Oh. Well yeah, sounds great" I said smiling sitting at the counter.
I've been smiling a lot lately.
It's just something about Luke that makes everything perfect. I don't know what I'd do without him.
"Wanna go to L.A?" he asked getting out his laptop and looking up flights.
"Sure" I shrugged.
After searching for 30 minutes we found good tickets.
"In 3 days we leave. We can have my mom take us" he smiled.
"I'm sick of having my mom do everything for me. It's a big bummer. But finally I can get my own place. You can too" he said smiling at me.
We both have birthdays fairly close. So we are now 18. Finally!
"Wanna go to your hotel room to get clothes? You can stay here until we leave. We get back after 3 weeks" he said.
I nodded and we walked to the hotel.
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When we finally got there We went to my hotel room and packed.
I grabbed most of my clothes since I don't have that much. And we were off.
I texted my mom telling her.
She really doesn't care, as long as I'm safe.
We got back to Luke's and he starts packing too.
"I can't believe I'm going to America!" I awed getting highly excited.
"Believe it. It's happening" Luke laughed zipping up his suitcase.
"How did we end up here?" I asked laying next to me.
"We bumped into each other. The rest is just blur. Now look at us" he smiled interlocking our fingers.
"You saved my life" I mumbled.
"Thank god I did" he said kissing my hand.
"What would've happened if I never trusted you? If we never got together? would I be dead?" I asked looking at the poster filled wall.
Out of the corner of my eye I see Luke look at me and sigh.
"I don't know. You're the only one who could answer that" he mumbled sadly.
I nodded and continued looking at nothing.
He probably wishes you'd be dead. He wouldn't have to put up with your shit
My mind spat at me causing me to cringe. Only because I believe my mind.
He probably does wish I was dead. So he could live in a happy world, where he didn't have to watch me.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked smiling at me.
"Us" I mumbled. It wasn't a complete lie. Right?
He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him.
"You know I love you... Right?" he mumbled in my ear.
I fiddled with my fingers and hesitantly nodded.
"I do love you, I love you so much, Ash. You have no idea" he said kissing my lips.
All these thoughts in my mind were making me feel dizzy. With the loving and hateful comments, It just made me want to vomit and die. My eyes were getting really droopy before I eventually only saw black.
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A/N
Do you ever feel like your brain is turning to mush bc of all the things going around in it.
Well, today I had an awkward conversation with my best friends boyfriend.
So Emma, if your reading this.
Your boyfriend was waiting at the corner of your street with his little brother.
QOTC: do you have an IG
AOTC: YASS! But I shall not reveal my identity yet.
I might make an IG for the Slipping Away series. Should I?