Life in a shell 🐚

"Mid Life Crisis"

You may wonder why the death of Papa had taken such a tolled over my life! He wasn't no ordinary Father figure to us, I was most definitely his pest but through it all he knew how much I loved him. It was a bright windy morning, due to cold climates there wasn't no school. Usually this time away from school were times we spent together as a family. Mama job keep her busy so much! Walking from the food store I heard a voice in the distant; "Hey shorty" I slowly turned around and there he was the same mouth watering bowl of cereal 🤤 Clueless on whether I should stop and entertain this man or break off running for the hills. Your guess is mines, I stop🤭 . Was he bad for me? I wondered; Hmmm.... with my biggity self I shock my head, roll my eyes and said "Yes" and smiled. He burst into laughter & whisper "Where are you headed?" Answering him honestly scared me on so many levels, noticing how calm he was allowed me to feel safe in his presence so without thinking I said "home". Introduction was made and numbers were exchanged. Yes; just like that I was already planning my wedding. Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into Months. I feel I was particularly crazy when it came to Davon. We were inseparable! My friends barely saw me like they used to, Mama felt distant. Davon was my entire world. Skipping schools were a norm for me, once "pudding" called me I made myself available. Pudding was his nickname & I was his "shortcake". Hanging in bars,smoking all of these things became apart of me. Being with someone who takes your mind of daily crisis this world have to offer you feels like a dream comes true. Davon introduce me to a life style I never once knew! Home became crazy, I stopped going to church, wasn't listening to my Mama.
We tend to do things and go places where we damn well know isn't healthy but yet we find ourselves doing it. One night I'll never forget and that's the night I decided to let Davon take my innocence. Doesn't matter what your thinking; ghee he was my "Man". No matter what no one told me or tried to tell me about this man! These ears wasn't listening and these eyes couldn't see beyond his gorgeous smile. I own him & tonight we was about to make passionate love. 💦💦💦💦