Becca's Moments

Chapter ThirtyNine

Becca

I peered ahead at the open window absentmindedly, completely still and frozen. Infact, I don't recall moving since I awoke from my nap. The sun was now beginning to set, giving the sky a luminous scarlet appearance. I couldn't help but stare; the sight was amazing. The atmosphere was eerily silent, as no-one else was home. Goosebumps formed on the surface of my skin as he ran his index finger along my arm slowly. I shivered under his touch as I remembered what had just happened not too long ago. He lay behind me on the bed, his body pressed firmly against mine. His fingers continued to graze my skin whilst his cool breath fanned the nape of my neck. The sensation was nice, however I felt disgusted with myself...again.

"Are you cold?" He asked on my neck. I breathed deeply.

"No."

"You are. I can feel it,” he insisted as his hand trailed down my arm, this time resting on my upper thigh. I shivered once again under his sensual caressing. "You should put a top on." It was then that I realised my chest was left unsupported; as my bra and summer dress was thrown fuck knows where.

"Mm," I grumbled in response. He kissed my neck and sat up; reaching for my discarded dress that had somehow ended up at the edge of the bed. He gave it to me and I slipped it on. "Where's my underwear?" I questioned. He gave a light shrug.

"I'd rather you left it off." I gave him a blank look, unimpressed. He noticed my expression and pulled my knickers from beneath him. Once I retrieved it I pulled it on and sighed. I didn't feel right at all, this was wrong.Sick and wrong.None of this should have happened, but I allowed it to, and for that I was sick.Sick and twisted.Fucked up and deluded. My chest ached and my heart was extremely heavy. Was this seriously the second time I've betrayed Ty? Now that I thought about it, the situation was becoming much worse. I didn't realise I was on my back once again until I witnessed Kayden peering down at me, his expression unreadable. God, look at this prick. Just seeing him made me angry. I wanted to kick his jaw in. I wanted to punch him so hard. I wanted to push him out of an open window

I wanted to kiss him...

I shook my head at my irrational thoughts and scoffed. He didn't deserve my attention, or anything else. I should have known something like this would happen between us. It was almost inevitable; like we couldn't keep away from eachother. Earlier when he said all those things, claiming that I belonged to Ty, he was right. Absolutely right. I belonged with him, we were perfect together. Tyreece has made me so joyful over the past eleven months, more than Kayden ever has. And we both knew it...

So why did I allow this to happen?

I rubbed my face, feeling mildly frustrated with myself and my stupid actions. I should be blaming him more than anyone, but I don't. I only blame myself for being caught up in this mess. After all, it was me who left the door open, inviting him to my room like a sket on her first link. The room fell silent as I pondered to myself with my eyes closed. His knuckles brushed my cheek gently and I sighed.

"I know." He muttered. "I know what you're thinking. None of this is your fault."

I didn't reply.

"I just can't keep away from you, Ree. I've missed everything about you." His weight moved on the bed as he lay beside me once again. I stiffened as his lips landed on my neck once more, then my cheek, then my temple. He sighed against my skin and ran his thumb along my lower lip. "I love you." He whispered. I swallowed hard and remained silent, eyes still closed. He continued to kiss me everywhere and I lay perfectly still. "I can't lose you again, Ree. We've been through enough." His hand rested on my stomach. He began to caress, circular motion; something he always done, something I missed. "I'd give anything to stay here with you right now." He said hotly in my ear. "To be able to feel this body, and these lips." He breathed deeply. Just then his mouth connected with mine and he kissed me slowly. A sweet, gentle kiss. My chest rose and fell in awe. I could never resist these lips, but I have to...right now. I pulled away and finally opened my eyes, turning away to gaze at the wall. Then I said the only thing I could say at this precise moment.