Broken

Chapter 12

LISA'S POV

I've been avoiding Jennie for almost a week now. It's not that I am mad at her because of what had happend. I understand and don't want her to feel obliged to be with me when I know that she will feel awkward if I'm just around.

Chaeng keeps asking me why I am not hanging out with them specially whenever Jennie is around.

I got away on answering her for a couple of days but she eventually cornered me on our rehearsal before our gig tomorrow.

"Lisa, you've been avoiding Jennie, right?" She asked directly to the point after Bambam and Jackson left us in the studio to buy food and drinks for us since I asked them to drink with me and I finished all of my stocks in my house.

"What are you talking about??" I tried to get away again but she held my arms before I can even stand.

"It's too obvious, Lisa. You never joined us for lunch or any breaktime and you're giving me pretty much petty excuses everytime. You guys have a problem?" Chaeng asked again.

I sighed. Maybe I should talk to someone since it's so hard to keep it on myself. I've been avoiding almost all of my friends in school. I am spending my nights drinking alone and not able to finish even one song.

I am so distracted and there's so many what ifs and questions inside my head.

I dont want to be in the dark again. Doing my old ways like doing drugs, meaningless sex and drowning myself with alcohols. Yes, I drink everyday for me to fall asleep but not in the worst way like before. It' still moderate that's why I am still able to go to school.

I looked at Chaeyoung. She's my human diary. It is her who knows me from the very start and the only one to keep me sane. Maybe I should tell her and maybe I can have a good advise from her like what she always do.

"You see, I like Jennie." I started and Chaeng starled me when she squeeled after hearing me say that.

"Finally!!! You admitted it at last!!" She shouted like it was long overdue.

"You knew?" I asked.

"Of course! You were so obvious, Lisa. Everyone can see and feel that you like Jennie." She said in a matter of fact.

"You and Jisoo Unnie said the same."

"Cause we all are not dumb, duh!"

"Anyways, I as I was saying, I asked permission to court Jennie to Jisoo Unnie first but for whatever badluck I have, Jennie heard our discussion." I stated.

"And???....." chaeng wants me to continue.

"She said she doesn't know what to say then left us in the living room. I can see that she's shocked and at the same time, uncomfortable on what she had learned. Because of that, I decided to stay away since I don't want her to be awkward around me." I explained.

"Jennie might misunderstood you for your actions, Lisa. She's sad the past days that you are not with us. It's too obvious that you are avoiding her. Like, you two were inseprable for how many months then you are suddenly wiped out of the picture in her everyday activity." Chaeng said.

"But what can I do? I can't even face her. She doesn't like me the way I wanted her to like me." I said then bowed my head.

Chaeng slowly tilt my head to meet her eyes.