Love Is Blind

TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR

.... without you, I feel broke like I'm half of a whole

without you, I've got no hand to hold......

"Cara? dinner's ready!" Dad must have come home already. I looked at the clock, then at the phone, as the song just ended. I pulled my earphones out, faced the mirror and got ready.

Ready? For what? that's what you must be wondering right?

 I had to put on my smile, tidy up my face by wiping the salty tears away. They were always there, ready to spill out, as soon as I was alone. 

I was just about to leave when I saw Ann had given me a missed call. The call...

"Cara!" mom was calling again. "Just give me a minute" I shouted back, down the stairs. 

Good thing my room was on the top, or else I would never had enjoyed my privacy...which was something I needed badly, especially the past few weeks. My parents noticing that I was eating and sleeping lesser than usual, even acting different towards Ann the past few days (something she too commented on) is bad enough.

I call her back and close my door. After a few rings, she picks up. I can tell she's out, for loud chattering can be heard. 

"Hey, you called?"I asked, the spirit within me is prancing about, biting her nails.

"Yes!! Girl! how many times I called you! Why weren't you picking up? Are you avoiding me again?"

"What?! No!! I..uh..fell asleep". I did actually, hearing the same voice...his voice

"Well..we wanted you to be the fir.." "We?", I ask. Interrupt, actually. O God, please, no....

My heart stopped. No, no, no...I swear if souls could pray, the inner me just did...leaning against the wall, waiting...

I hear giggling before she finally answers, "Well, Albert and I are OFFICIALLY DATING!!", she squels through the phone. My mind goes blank..the inner me falling on her knees. I remember hearing mutterings before she says something like"he wants to talk to you"

He wants to talk? to me?

Before I could say anything, I hear his voice..."Hello Cara"

I control myself within ...  I remember speaking a cracked "hi"

"We wanted you to be the first to know, since, well,  you were the one who introduced us"

more like you spilled coffee on us...

 I managed to mutter a weak "Uh uh".

Silence. He noticed. "You ok?", he asked, in that lower, calmer voice..in that voice of his, that I....

I cleared my throat. "Ya! I'm good!"   "You sure?" he asks again. "Positive"

I could picture him smiling...that smile..

"So?" Ann on the phone again.I hope I would never have to undergo again, the pain I went through, to say the next words ......" Congrats guys! You are really meant for each other." 

"AWW!!Thank you sweetie".   "That's really sweet of you Cara", his voice..it felt different.

There was only one thing left to do. "See y'all in school". I cut the call and opened the door. 

"Mom? I'm not hungry",I call out. "Sure honey?"  "I'm sleepy. Good night"  "Good night"

I came in, close the door and crumble down, my tears finally bursting out. I felt my soul breaking within...crumbling apart.

No clue what just happened, do you?

Let me explain....from the day it all began..when I saw him for the first time....Albert...Al..