"Oh God, God. How the hell is this my life? How did I become this? When did I become this? I'm just as much a monster as the ones I kill. Things were not alway so bad, right? Can't remember anymore. It's been too long. I don't remember what it feels like to laugh anymore, can you believe that? I can't remember.
I never intended for it to be like this. To feel like this. It was about saving people. That's it. Not power, or greed, or love, or for the hell of it. It was about saving innocent people. Men, women, mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, people. We were making a difference, Sammy and I. How did it come to this?
Do you see this? It's my 9th. Can I hold this much liquor? Guess we'll find out. I drink to feel, you know. That buzz, that numb, sometimes it's the only thing I feel. Want to feel? What's the difference. Everyone's gone. Everyone's dead or has left me for shit. Ha! And I'm the last one standing, figures.
God wants to see my suffer. Oh wait, that's right-gods left the building! Split like a teen daddy who can't pay his child support. What am I doing with myself? How is this my life? How did It turn out like this? Why am I asking so many fucking questions?
Dean Winchester is dead on the inside.
Awesome."
****NOTES: This story takes place within the normal Supernatural universe (can I call it that?), though it is a fictitious time frame that's kind of middle ground, before the mark of Cain, but after the Angels have fallen (though, heaven has been re-re-established), Charlie's not in Oz yet. Just in case any of ya were confused. Also, all angels mentioned aside from Castiel, are fictitious.
I really hope you hold on till the end, I promise it gets good. It's only shitty in certain parts, I swear. Thank you so much for choosing this particular work instead of all the others you had the choice of. Means the world to me. Truly. :)))))
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The Impossible Happy
FanfictionI've never written a description before. But from what I've seen, it usually has some lil bit of the story that really makes you want to read more. So, here goes: (this is a bit from chap 1) "The Angel, Castiel, was worried. He had done everything...
