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late night talks; sydney novak

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i banged on the door a couple times before bringing my hand back to bite on my nails. darting my eyes all around the place.

sydney opened the door and squinted her eyes. "maddie? it's 2 in morning what at you-." then they widened. "holy shit. a-are you okay?"

my body shivered as i stood out here longer. "can you let me in? it's raining."

she nodded and stepped aside as i walked in and upstairs to her room.

"yeah, sure. we can go up there."

i flopped down on her bed and stared down at the ground. "it happened again."

syd sat down next to me. "the dreams?"

my head nodded and tears started to whelm up in my eyes. syd just looked over at me and held me tightly. "it's gonna get better, i swear it is. and believe me, i'm the last person to admit considering my dad died."

i sniffled once again and felt a tear roll down my cheek. "are you just saying that?"

syd has now pulled away from me, her eyes flickering down to my lips and then back up in my blue eyes. "no, i'm not."

the sudden urge to kiss her was unbearable, though i didn't know why. i've never thought of sydney that way before. at least i don't recall. but in a swift motion i still went for it and laid my lips on hers. quickly pulling away and looking at her with fear.

"i-i'm so sorry."

syd was hesitant but slowly moved her face to mine. "no it's...it's okay." and then pressed her lips on mine.

we sat there for about a minute until we pulled away.

syd had now looked away from me. "so...do you wanna maybe be like," then looked up at me with a blush on her cheeks. "mine?"

i grinned at her.

"yes, of course i would."

ahhh sorry this took so long :((