The look in your eyes

07

Song: home by one direction
(A message from Liam to Louis)

Harry's pov
"You know Brooklyn?" Gemma asked brightly as we both set the table. I nodded telling her to continue. Even though I had just met the boy I was still a bit down that he was straight. "She said some kid had a massive anxiety attack in the middle of her class over a bad grade. I remember a few years ago he use to be really laid back and carefree. You would always here stories of him jumping off things and getting in trouble for being too loud but I don't think I've heard him speak for two years." She explained sadly.
I was pretty sure my heart broke for the second time that day. Why were so many people hurting. Why couldn't people just be kind?

"What's his name gem? I might know his parents." Mum called out from the kitchen because of course she was listening.

"Louis Tomlinson." Gemma called back simply as she set each fork. It just felt like salt in the wound to hear that.

"I don't think I have met his parents once. He always came to events with the Payne family." My mum grumbled as she put a pot down onto the table. They all shrugged the conversation off like it was nothing but it played on my mind the rest of the night.

Liam's pov
"Boys dinner is ready for you." My mum hummed as she popped her head into my room to see a more fragile looking Louis than normal. He was encased in a big jumper and blankets whilst I sat on the other opposite end of the bed with my computer on my lap. I was pretending to work. I was more focused on watching lou but he refused to let me so this was as close as I could get.

I knew he wasn't completely comfortable here. I hoped he knew he wasn't alone. I knew he felt as if he was stumbling in the dark but I hoped he knew I would always be his light. I would make this feel like home

He had practically been silent since his anxiety attack. I knew that meant he wasn't going to eat. "Do you want to come down?" I asked kindly as I shut my laptop. Louis just shook his head. "That's okay. Just let yourself feel whatever you need to feel. I'll come up here to eat with you." I didn't want to leave Louis alone In my room for too long despite the fact I had completely striped my room of objects he could use for harm.

I made my way down the stairs slowly, I was too tired to rush. The kitchen was calm as only my mother stood serving the last plate. "Is lou feeling any better?" She asked. I knew that she was genuinely worried. She loved Louis like a son.

"I'm not sure mum. His heads a mess. I can barely talk to him. I think it was impressive enough we got him to school for half the day today. I think this is the first time he's really let himself process it all and actually feel it. I want those bastards behind bars." I ranted feeling completely comfortable with my mum.

"I know lovey." She said sympathetically. I knew she felt the same way. "Remember to look after yourself. And don't you forget about my zaynie. Don't shut him out." She warned. She was very fond of Zayn, she loved his presence in the house.

That's when I realised how lucky I was to have an accepting mother. I engulfed her in a tight hug. "Thank you mum." I said suddenly my throat tight with threatening tears. "For accepting me for who I love." I explained keeping my mother in a tight hold.

I think she was taken back by the sudden contact but when I pulled away she just showed me a warm smile. "What kind of mother would I be if I didn't?" She laughed softly but the happy act quickly dropped when she figured out why I was so glad. "He can't seem to catch a break can he." She huffed sadly keeping her eyes down on the sink.

I had told my mum that Louis was being hurt by his parents and he'd need to live with us and I suspect she already knew about the eating disorder. However, I didn't tell her anything more than I needed to. That was up to Louis to talk about the rest, when he was comfortable.

After a moment of silence my mum handed me two plates. "Make sure he eats something." She said softly before I turned to walk upstairs managing a small 'thank you'

Louis POV

I had never felt this much. I had always shut down my emotions to some degree so I could carry out a normal life. But now that it was all out in the open, I had to think about it.

I knew I was being a hassle to Liam and Zayn who were basically full time caretakers even though we were the same age. I'd be dumb if I didn't notice the constant tired look on Liam's face and the lines on Zayn's forehead forming.

I was taken out of my thoughts when I heard Liam's door open. I jumped a little bit at the noise. "It's okay bub. It's just me." He hummed softly. He looked as if he had been crying. It was my fault he had been crying. God, why do I have to be so annoying. "I brought food because I want you to at least try and eat." He added sitting the plate in front of me. I could barely look at it without the urge to throw up. "It's okay lou. I know it's hard." The other said sadly rubbing my back as I took a bite.

After a few moments of that peaceful silence Liam spoke up again.  "Do you think you can make it through school tomorrow?" He asked softly as if I were a baby. I nodded slowly hoping he got the message and I didn't have to speak. "Alright, let me know if you need to go home. And zee is going to come over tomorrow night for dinner. Are you alright with that?" He continued as he picked at his dinner. I nodded again. Why wouldn't I be okay with that? It wasn't my house?

I fell asleep that night feeling sick thinking about the next day. I truly didn't want to open my eyes again.

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I know it's a lot of Liam's pov but it's showing how well Liam knows Louis for the future chapters