The look in your eyes

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Song: Better off by Jeremy Zucker

Liam's pov
"I'm surprised Louis let you see me." He laughed brightly. I had missed his laugh.

I shook my head as I slid into the car. "Just like last weekend. He's off with Harry."  I smiled. I was proud of him. He had come so far. Of course there were times he would break down and say he couldn't do it anymore but he always got through the rough times. "I haven't told him w-we are back together." I said sheepishly as Zayn drove down the near empty streets.

He whipped his head around faster than I could fathom. "Li, you told me you would tell him two weeks ago." He huffed gripping the wheel tighter. "I hate sneaking around. He use to be my best friend." He added sadly.

I put my hand on his knee in comfort. "I know baby but it's just when we first got back together he was so happy from his date with Harry and I didn't want to ruin it." I admitted truthfully making it seem as if the truth wasn't sad.

"Why would it ruin it?" Zayn asked shifting away from my hand

I wish I didn't have to explain it to him, it truly hurt me to explain it. "Because of what you said zee." I said softly somewhat sinking into myself. I hated when he got like that I was always his rock but i never knew how to handle conflict with him.

"You forgave me. Why can't he?" He asked as he physically tensed up.

This was the part I was fearing, explaining it. "Because Zayn it's more complicated then that for him." I said trying to avoid saying the words.

At this point Zayn begun to pull over. "Then explaining to me Liam!" He growled keeping his eyes on his hands.

I wish I didn't have to say the truth. "He nearly killed himself that night Zayn! When I called you to ask where he was he was on top of the school! Harry went up there and Louis said he was going to fucking jump!" I yelled tears beginning to fall from my eyes. "I know he is going to feel betrayed if I get back with you." I added quietly.

We both stayed silent. I was too scared to say anything and honestly I think Zayn was too upset.

"I should have know. He wasn't in the right head space and I shouldn't have said any of that. I should've known." He said truthfully. I looked over to see he was crying. I had seen Zayn cry maybe a maximum of 5 times in our relationship.

I quickly grabbed his face and began to kiss him in attempt to stop the tears. I never wanted him to cry about it but he had the right to know. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told you. I will tell lou." I said quickly trying to fix the mess I had made.

However Zayn's head stayed down in my hands. He didn't seem pleased at what I said. "Liam, I love you so much, please know that, but maybe now isn't the time for us. I think we should spend a little longer apart. You need to focus on lou." He admitted honestly. "We knew this wouldn't last like it use to. I'm okay with that as long as I don't completely lose you." He added softly.

I just nodded. "Maybe were better off alone but I won't turn my back on us." I said pulling my hands away from the tan boys face. "Can you just drop me home?" I asked keeping my eyes fixed on my lap so I didn't have to show Zayn the fact I was crying.

Louis' pov
"I'm pretty sure you're sister still hates me." I said honestly as I swung our hands.

Harry stayed silent as we walked down the street. "She doesn't hate you. She's just protective. She will get over it." He hummed. I wanted to be certain that she didn't hate me but I couldn't be sure so I just kept quiet as I led Harry down the road.