The look in your eyes

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Song: adore you by Harry styles
(A message from Harry to Louis)

Louis pov
"Hi sleepy head." Chuckled the sweet voice I had grown so use to. I looked around to see I was now in my bedroom at Liam's house. My body was draped over Harry's as he ran a hand up and down my back. I was really confused on how I ended up in the bed, a few minutes ago I was in the school bathroom. "You fell asleep at school. Liam decided to bring you home and you have been asleep ever since. I can go if you want but Liam said I should come over." Harry explained forcing it to all click in my head.

I couldn't help but notice how beautiful the boy was. I leaned up and gently pressed my lips against the others. "Thank you." I hummed before burrowing my forehead into the boys chest further. "I've been a proper dick the past few days." I explained drawing circles on the older boys stomach.

Before I had stumbled into the bathroom I was almost sure I was going to break up whatever I had with Harry because it was so wrong according to my parents. I thought maybe if I genuinely had a girlfriend they would be proud. However, now I'm regretting ever thinking that awful thought.

"You don't need to be sorry, love. I understand it.what you've been going through is tough and sometimes I need to be more aware of it." Harry said. I could tell he truly meant the words he was saying. Every single word was reassuring in some odd way, maybe it was just the way he was holding me. Harry seemed to pick up on the small things and notice that I was deep in some thought. "I just want you to know, I'm so fucking proud of you. For coming this far. A month ago you could barely admit you liked me, now look at you." He added and again all I could detect was truth.

"It's easy when it's all for you." I said in a sickly sweet tone. I knew if Zayn or Liam we're here they'd make fun of my cheesiness but Harry never did. "But haz, understand that these things don't just go away. I will have days were I can't kiss you or I'm too nervous to leave the house. All this stuff, it comes and goes." I said truthfully hoping Harry would grasp the seriousness of it.

He just nodded softly. "I understand that lou. Just trust me, yeah? Don't be afraid. It is what it is. You can't change who you are, you just have to accept it for what it is. And if you can't do that just let me adore you " Harry's words have stayed with me since that day. That had a heavy meaning even if he didn't know it. I was at ease in that moment. Nothing could hurt me. Until I heard a loud smash.

Both Harry and I shared a curious glance before following the sound. We came to find Liam standing at an open door rubbing his temples. He must've heard as walking down the stairs because he turned around on his heals. "What was that?" I asked timidly going right back into my shell.

He let his shoulders drop slightly standing aside. I looked to see a massive tree fallen on my old beat up car. It was one of the only objects I had brought with me so I think Liam expected me to be upset but I was somewhat at peace.

"Lou, I'm so sorry we will buy you a new car." Liam rushed quickly but I didn't care about a new car. It was odd that I didn't care but I couldn't will myself to care.

I laughed softly. "It's fine li." I said before turning to Harry who seemed to be increasingly tense. "What's wrong curly?" I asked lightly.

Harry just shook himself out of his daze. "I've just never really looked at your car before, s'all." He hummed

I laughed fondly as I turned to look at a very confused Liam. "You should be upset!" He huffed crossing his arms across his chest. "I told you to park there knowing that tree was lose." He said in disbelieve.

I just shrugged softly. "One thing my brilliant parents taught me is there is no point in getting so upset over the little things. The only way that ends with a life time of trauma and bruises." I said truthfully trying to put a happy tone on it to cover the actual sadness I felt about my parents.

Liam's look completely softened. "Don't joke about that lou." He said quietly.

"It's odd l, I feel quite free." I hummed as I made my way towards the kitchen with Harry and Liam following closely behind me.

They both let out a loud laugh in response to my words. "You are a strange little man." My best friend joked.

I knew he didn't mean to offend me but I sent him a death glare. "'m not little liiiiii!" I wined dramatically.

After another few minutes of light conversation Harry got eight of a clock. "Shit. I have to get home. Thank you for having me darling." He hummed before pressing a soft kiss to my forehead. I let him do it even though on the inside I wanted to curl up into a little ball.

We waved Harry off before Liam quickly shot me a look. "So, Harry and you? Together?" He asked. I had left Liam in the dark about the whole situation.
I was trying to deal with it by myself.

"Not yet." I said simply.

Liam just gave me an understanding nod. "Can I check your wrists?" Liam asked. It was routine at this point. I laid my wrist in his hands so he could roll up my sleeves to check. Every time he had been disappointed to find more slashed in my arm but this time he didn't find a new one. "There isn't anything new." He said in disbelieve as his eyes grazed over them one final time to make sure he was correct.

"I told you I wanted to get better."