The look in your eyes

15

Song: fight or flight by Conan Gray
(A message from Liam to Zayn)

Harry's pov
We had skated for over two hours. Niall and Di were still filled with energy however so I watched them skate around madly as I held Louis close to my body once we were leaning against the railing. I knew he was okay with this but knowing what was okay was like walking through a maze in the dark.

The shorter boy nuzzled his head under my chin. "Someone's cuddly today." I laughed but I truly was soaking every moment of this up as if it were the sun.

"I'm cold." He huffed gently. I just laughed. He was always cold.

I pulled him closer against my body. "Of course you are." I said softly watching as Liam yell at Zayn over something, they had been doing that a lot lately. "It's good, I like it." I added wanting to make sure the boy didn't look over to his friends.

Louis let out a small laugh looking up to me. "Your pretty cute, know that?" He asked with his eyes focused on my lips.

I nodded keeping my eyes on his lips. The lips I craved. I leant in a bit and Louis just nodded. For the first time I kissed him without fear of him pushing away. And he didn't. It was so gentle. Despite the cold air around us his lips were warm.

He eventually ended up pulling away. His eyes stayed closed a moment. His hands were balled up on my chest. I was scared he would still break away. "Don't run." I said desperately keeping my eyes down on the boy.

He just shook his head. "I won't. I'm trying so hard Haz." He said truthfully.

"I know and you are doing so well. That was such a big step." I hummed lightly.

There was a moment of silence between us.  eventually we both opened our eyes. I let a small smile creep against my face. "You didn't run." I said happily to the boy still in my arms.

Louis shook his head again. "I didn't!" He said excitedly. "Thank you for being so patient. You deserved that." He added laughing at the end of it.

I noticed the tears gathering in his eyes. I brushed them off his cheeks. "Don't cry love. Happy times." I said happily sending him a genuine smile. He just nodded in agreement.

Liam pov
"I should have known you were cheating on me!" I huffed as I stormed out of the bathroom. We had stoped skating an hour in and were watching from the cafe in the rink. After about twenty minutes of texting Zayn slipped off to the bathroom. When he didn't return after half an hour I went in search of him.

It wasn't truly a shock when I heard his little moans behind a bathroom stall and I could see some boy's knees on the ground. It was Eliot from school. They must have been hooking up for weeks.

Zayn didn't even try and defend himself. He just kept his stare on the ground. He knew there was no coming back. "Was I not good enough for you? What was it Zayn? Please tell me!" I said desperately tears now springing from my eyes.

"Can we not do this here?" He asked sadly. Why was he sad he knew what he was doing when he hooked up with someone. He did this knowingly.

"No Zayn. If you didn't want this happening here you should've brought your fuck buddy here while I was also here." I said in a more hushed tone.

The other looked conflicted "Do you really want to know?" I just nodded simply. "I was sick of being a parent to Louis. You spend so much more time with him than you did me. I just wanted attention. I'm sorry." He said honestly. How dare he blame this on lou is all that went through me head.

"No, sorry doesn't cut it this time. You want my attention? You got it and you lost it all in the span of five minutes. We are over Zayn. Go. I can't look at you anymore." I said harshly. Zayn got the message and scurried off.

For the first time I could ever remember I felt lost. I felt out of control. I felt like I was falling and I couldn't be caught. My vision was blurred with anger. I stormed out to my car. I didn't care I brought everyone, I couldn't be there anymore. I didn't know where I was going but I was going.

Harry's POV
When I looked back up from Louis' watery eyes, I couldn't see Liam or Zayn. I checked for Niall and Delilah and I saw them skating as if nothing happened. I panicked a little because they had the car.

"Where is Liam? And Zayn?" I asked Louis nervously looking around the rink more.

Louis just shrugged as if it were nothing. "I don't know. Why does it matter?" He asked sounding almost annoyed.

"No, no lou they were fighting but I thought it was nothing an-and their gone." I stuttered.

Louis immediately pulled his phone out of his pocket to text them. After a moment he looked up saying a small "okay. Lets go get niall and di so we can go look for them. This isn't Liam. Zayn maybe but definitely not li." He hummed calmly but I knew he was trying to fight his nerves. Liam was his everything, he couldn't lose that.

"Hey, we will find them." I said softly catching his hand before he could leave. "They will be alright." I added which made Louis nod softly and skate over to the blonde and his girlfriend.

I followed him quickly. God I hoped we found them. Louis was only just starting to get better. He couldn't recover from losing Liam. I felt my heart break at the thought. A thought I instantly shoved right back down. I couldn't think about losing Liam or Zayn either.