You Chose Her

Prologue

Author's POV:

After 2 months of breaking her heart, he asks to see her again. She didn't know if she should meet up with him but she gave in. Her broken heart longing for him after he was the one who shattered it.

It was a calm night. The moon was high... and their hearts were longing for each other.

He arrived first and waited for her, in the same spot they met. Watching her as she appeared slowly. Her shadow arriving before her. With each step, she took, regret-filled her heart. She saw him waiting there with a faint smile.

"Yerin..." He called out, "You came."

She gave a small smile and sat down, never sparing him a glance. "Umm... what did you want to talk about??"

"I um... wanted to apologize... for everything. I um... I shouldn't have treated you like that knowing that I had feelings for-"

"It's fine." She interrupted, "I get it. You love her." Looking out into the scenery... she played every moment with him in her mind... and imagined him with her... living those moments with her... the girl who took him away... her best friend.

"No. If you would just let me-"

"Let you what Tae??" She said as she turned over to see the face that broke her. "Tell me that you realized that you didn't love her. That you only liked her beauty." She said with pain. He was shocked at what she said.

How did she know??-He thought.

She sighed, "Yuju told me that you would say that. She knew that you were going to realize that sooner or later. I should've listened to her..."

She began to get up and he felt his heart drop. He got up as fast as he could and grabbed her hand.

"No. Yerin. Please listen to me. I love-"

"No!" She stopped him and turned around... her hand still in his.

She pointed a finger at him with the other hand. "You listen to me. I loved you with all of my heart!! I loved you even when I knew that you were in love with her!! My BEST FRIEND!!! I cried every night because you broke me. You ripped my heart out of my chest and shattered it." She yelled.

Tears were starting to pour, burning as she let all of her feelings pour. Feelings that she didn't even know that she could release.

"Yerin please... don't be angry." He pleaded as he tried to grab her other hand.

She pulled them away, "I am not angry... I'm hurt... there's a difference... I'm in pain!!" She sobbed.

"And YOU put me here!!! The person who I thought loved me more than anything!!! Everyone tells me that I shouldn't cry over you... that you aren't worth the tears. But I can't help it... I miss us. Even though you hurt me, I miss you... I love you..." she confessed.

Finally releasing the pain she felt... feeling the weight easing off her shoulders. He felt the need to hug her but he didn't... because he knows that he hurt her enough already.

"You know... when I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you. When I loved you... I was afraid of losing you. And when 11:11 arrived, I would keep wishing and wishing that I wouldn't lose you. And when I did, I realized that I was the only one of us stuck on 11:11... realizing that time had moved on... and so did you." She sat back down as he sat next to her.

His tears had already found an escape and he just watched her, as they strolled down his face. He never realized how much he had hurt her.

"Tell me... what was the point of coming into my life?? Making my heartbeat again... giving me butterflies in my stomach, and promising that you'd always be there... just to leave like I meant nothing??" She asked him.

He opened his mouth and she watched as he tried to come up with an answer... and when he couldn't she asked him another question.

"Do you know how hard it is to see the person you want to forget the most in everything you love?? You never leave my mind. Even when i have a million things to think about... You haunt me."

"I'm sorry. I just. She was... I knew her longer than you. She was in my heart longer than you were but... when I saw you... everything changed. You found your way faster into my heart than anyone ever had. I loved you. I did... but she. Seeing how broken she was after she broke up with Jungkook... I had to help her. And when I did... I felt myself starting to fall back in love with her." He said to her.

Yerin shook her head and sighed, "She was the one that you liked first... but she was taken when I first met you. So you picked me... and I knew that, but I loved you. So when you did pick me... I buried it in the back of my mind... not thinking about the fact that I may have been your second choice. I never thought about it until her breakup... when she was available, I knew that it would change everything. And despite having me to love... you picked her. You fucking picked her... I should've seen that coming. I'm so stupid."

"No. That's not true. I never picked her. Yes, I began to fall in love with her again... but I knew that it wasn't the kind of love that we felt for each other. It was different." He told her.

"How was it different?? You said it yourself... she was in your heart longer. You began to fall in love with her." She continued.

"It was different... because she was a forbidden love. She was an adventure that I could never take. Meanwhile, the love I had for you... was a love that I will never find anywhere else. Your love was something that made me feel whole... that made me a better person... that made me want to be a better person. It was true love." He said.

Yerin scoffed, "You never made me feel like that when we were dating. You would always push me aside whenever she came over. You spent more time with her than you would ever spend with me. You made me feel like I wasn't good enough. I gave it my all. I'm tired of giving it my all and it never being enough. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep at night and waking up in the morning not recognizing myself because of you. I'm tired of not being thin enough, or pretty enough. I'm tired of not being enough for you!" She sobbed as she ran away.

He sat there staring at the spot she sat in.

How could I have been so blind to not see how awful I treated you?? - He thought.

You were enough... more than I could ask for...

He sat there waiting for her... yelling her name. Calling out to her, but even though he called out for her, he knew that she wouldn't return, so instead, he walked away... slowly, but surely. Never looking back...