Black to Purple, Purple to Magenta | A Prinxiety Sanders Sides Fanfiction

💜Chapter 19: Questions

TW: cursing, self-deprecating thoughts, s/lf-h/rm mention, an/r/x/a mention

Quick Recap:
"You know I love you, right, kiddo?"

"Now I do... thanks, Dad..."

💜Chapter 19: Questions-
Anxiety and Morality ask each other questions.

Virgil/Anxiety's POV:

My eyes widened in shock on what I just said. I tilted my head to see Patton's reaction.

Patton was frozen in place, looking as if he was about to cry.

Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit- I just have to ruin everything, don't I?!

"Ohgod, Ishouldn'thavesaidthat. I'msorry, sosorry-"

Į̶̼̗͍͌̀̈̐̅̌́̀͗͘̕̕̕ͅ ̴̢̫̪̙̥̬̫̈́͐͗̀̾̅̆̐̀̍͛͗͝͠w̸̨̻̜͑̋͆͑̚ḁ̸̂̔̑̿̿́̓̊͘̕͘n̷̡̡͚̗̝͍̝͔͉̰̰̍̒̋͋ť̷̢̛̞̜̤̲̜͕͕̝̲͓̥̜̟̟̎͊͂̍̓͆͆͌̂́́ ̵̛͚̣͕͗̾̇͊̓͒͊̊̂̏͂͘̚̚t̸̛̺̻̃̓͛̊͗̐̔̆̓͠͝͝ỏ̸̘͓̬̺͓̼͙̼̩̯̲͛̈͆͑̉͘ ̵̲̜̗̟̝̪͎͔̘́̑͆̉͛̀̾͜j̷̧̡̘̙̟͍̬̣͓͎͔̀̌̎͐̈͑̚͘ͅu̶̹̜̪͇̪̰͇͈̅̄͛̀̓͜ͅs̴̢̡̧͚̟̮̞͇̥͇̘̪͎͑͑̑̈́͆̍̓́͂̈̈̂͝ͅț̶̡̧̢͕͚̦̣̖̼̦̱̳͖̒̅̿̇̋̌̽͝ͅ ̷̪̺̹͈̤̭̟̣͕͆̾̾̔́̅͒͆̅c̶̹̭̈́́͌̃́͘u̵̡͓̹̖͖̘̩̼͎͎̒́̌͒͝͝r̸̢̢̢̹͙̞̬̮͎͖̻͙̜͈͚̆̍̓l̷̗͍̰͇̂̀̎̾ ̷̬̞̭͉̠̣̬̼͚̫̥̾ư̸̭͕̞͔̯͍̖̟̟͑̆͊̎͑̔̋̂̊̈́p̷̳̱̫͙̘̭̥͕͎͔̣̻̣̑̾̈͂̓͂̈́̅͊̚͘ ̴̣̞͇̏͌͐̿͂̎̋̽̏͠i̸̢̫̼̳̻͓͙͚̮̫̤̒̀͆̂̔̈́̈͂̚̚n̴̢̛͖̳̽͑̄͋̑̃̏̀̋̽̑͝t̵̡̛̤̰͆́̃̿͗̓͛̿̽̚̕̕ō̴̩̥̘̖̈́̈́͌̉̾́̾̂̑̔͒ ̶̪̝͖̝̠̝͙̃̐̂̃͑̂͆͂͌͐a̵͍̦̣̻̻̖̤̣̝̔̏̾̚͜͝ͅ ̷̛̖̞̖̣̈́͛̃́̾̌̐̆̑̃̕͠b̷̪͑̿̅̓̎̂̓́̓͛å̵̢̧̡̛̪͇̰͔̞̯͔͇̠̮̎̈́̾̈͒̓̔̃ļ̶̞͕̲̭̭̗̠̑̾͌͐͌̓̆̑̓̿̑͠͠ļ̶͈̮͓̝͐͜͜ͅ ̷̧̯̣͖̜͂̒̐̄̓̾̋͜͝a̸̢̖͈̯̣̪̰̗̟͓̫̋̾͝n̶̤̬̝͕̼͎̖͍̣̤͈̪̈́̆͗̄͐̈̽̾̈̆̕͠d̶̬̺͉̦̪̪̠̣̭̹͎̋̆̈́̿̾͑̇̋̈́͐̕ ̶̧̟̙̖̫̯͚̺͖̱̖͕͌́͊̃́̽͗̌̔͌̀̄̓d̵̨̧̩̭͉̳̘̙̦̱̝̻͚͇̳͒i̷̢̢̨̱̻̝̰̲͕̞̖̋̃̈͂͐͊̾̉̈̿͠ͅȩ̶̡̲̲͇̫̗̪͔̱͍͋̀̆̑̀̀̊̓̆͊.̵̧͙̬̔̈́͌ͅ.̴̛̰̠̲̗̮͈͔̩̙̭͍̎͒̿̃̽͗̀͘.̴̡͉͖̳͎̰̅̿̓̈́͋

I shut my eyes closed, scared if something was going to hit me. If Pat was going to yell at me.

I was drowning in my thoughts, them overwhelming my mind.

I really shouldn't have done that. It was unexpected. Bad timing. I know Patton always wanted me to call him Dad for some reason but I kind of figured that he didn't mean it. It was a joke. Right? What did I do? I messed everything up. He probably hates me for being annoying. Clingy. Stupid-

I didn't even realize Patton was shouting until I felt some warmth on my shoulder.

"Anxiety! Look at me!" I did. And he seemed... tense? "Are... you okay?" I was confused. I thought he was gonna be mad... He had to be. I'm so-

I turned my head away shamefully.

Patton whispered, quiet so only I could hear him- even though no one else was even in the room- "Come on, it's okay..."

"I'm glad."

I whipped my head up to his eyes, my limbs locked in place. Hands shaking. Why was I so scared? My emotions were all over the place... He pulled me into a hug, wrapping his arms around me. I felt his body heat but... something in my heart was warm. Love?

"I'm glad..."

I broke a few more tears. God, I was crying a lot today.

"Haha... I think that's enough tears for now..." He said awkwardly, letting go of the hug. I just nodded. I took a few sips of water to compose myself. I was pretty dehydrated after being such a wimp crying twice, now three, in one conversation.