Book of thoughts

NSFW

This is really NSFW.
And it's just random thoughts/sexual experiences.
Anywho. Read at your own risk.

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I'm high, my body feels numb. It feels so warm. And wet down there. I almost forgot how it feels to have someone else touch me down there. To feel someone else messing with me. I feel like I can't move. Like I can feel someone holding me down while I'm being played with. I think of quite a few people when this happens. All of them have hurt me though. So why do I always think of them when I'm feeling like this. I want to feel what it's like being touched again. By someone else that is. I want someone to use me again. Use me as a toy. Just like they use to. Where ever you want to put it. The most recent one was perfect. I want it back. I want him to grab me, hit my thighs, choke me, tease me however he wants like he use to. I remember the first time I felt him was amazing. I didn't know he would be that big. I wanted to drag him somewhere else and get on my knees. The one before that was a close call. Though I wish we went further, I had fun. You treated me like I was more than just a toy. The one just before the last was rough. I wish I could've seen yours. I won't lie, I dreamt about you after what you did on the bus. I wanted you to pour wax on me, put ice all over my sensitive parts, and grab my thighs. The first one was the absolute worst. We went pretty far most times. But it's still not even close to the shit I did with the others after you. We did have our hot moments and we took turns being on top. Which is the only thing I miss