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Chapter 53

Kally's P.O.V
"Why is this happening again?" I ask Harry. "I-I don't know." He whispers. Harry and I have been crying for the past three hours. We haven't been able to look at each other since. "But just know it's not your fault." Harry says. "Why not? It was in my stomach so therefore it is." I whisper. "No it's not, Kally." He sighs. "Whatever." I mumble. "Listen, I have to go, but I'll be back later." He says, getting up. "What? Can't handle being around me anymore because of this?" I ask. "No, the boys and I are going to an interview." He says. "Okay." I say softly. "Okay, I love you." He says. "I love you, too." I whisper. Harry kisses my lips, and they tasted salty from his tears. When he pulls away, he turns around, and leaves.
Harry's P.O.V
I didn't want to leave Kally when she needed me most. I really didn't. But I had an interview. "Hey Harry!" Liam says. "Hi." I say softly. "What's wrong?" Louis asks. "Kally's in the hospital." I say. "Why?" Liam asks. "She lost the baby again." I say, and it hurts to say it. I try to swallow, but it's hard, leaving a huge lump in my throat. "We're so sorry, Harry." Louis says. "What happened?" Niall asks. "Well, we were laying on the couch, and then she started saying that her stomach was hurting really bad, so I took her to the hospital, and the doctor said she had a miscarriage." I sigh. Just thinking about it again makes me want to cry yet punch a wall. "That's terrible! How is she?" Zayn asks. "She's not doing so good. She thinks it's her fault. This is last year all over again." I shake my head. "It'll get better mate!" Louis puts his hand on my shoulder. "No it won't, because now Kally can't get pregnant at all." I say. "How's that?" Liam asks. "Something about her eggs, I don't know. But all I know is that the only way we're going to have a baby is by a surrogate." I sigh. I didn't really think much of having a surrogate. I actually thought it was kind of weird. Having some stranger hold your child hostage inside of them for mine months. But if that's what it takes, then I'm up for it. "So, are you going to do it?" Zayn asks. "I guess, if Kally wants to that is. She might just give up." I say. "Well, just talk her into it!" Louis says. "It's going to be hard." I sigh. "You guys will be fine! Just don't give up!" Liam smiles. "But that's the point guys.. We already have."
Kally's P.O.V
I was laying in the hospital bed watching tv, and waiting for Harry to return. I hear a knock on the door, and it's Ashley and Luze. "Knock knock." Luze smiles as she opens the door. "Hi." I say softly, not really in the mood to talk to anyone. "How are you holding up?" Ashley asks. "If I said good, I'd be lying." I say. Ashley sighs, and they sit on foot of my hospital bed. "It's going to be okay." Luze says. "No it's not, Luze. I finally get pregnant again after a year, and what happens? Another miscarriage. That's not okay." I say. "Don't give up, alright? Just try it for a third time!" Ashley says. "Guys don't you get it? I can't get pregnant! I have to hire some stupid surrogate just to have a baby!" I cry. No, matter of fact, I bawl. I bawl so hard that soon it hurts to cry. "Kally we're so sorry." Ashley rubs my leg. "No it's not! My life is over with! I'll never be happy!" I cry. "Yes you will." Luze says. "Easy for you to say. At least you can have a baby." I whisper. Luze doesn't say anything at all, and neither does Ashley, leaving us in a room of complete silence.
Harry's P.O.V
I asked my mum to check on Kitty for me while I was in the hospital with Kally. At the moment, she's sleeping while I'm wide awake thinking why this is happening again. I thought this was going to be it for us. I thought my life was finally going to be complete, but I was wrong. All my life I've wanted kids, and twice now I was so close to having a family, but it keeps getting taken away from me. Why? I don't know why. Is it something that I said? Something that I've done? What is it? Are we not ready? I understood the last time about us not being ready, but this time! Really? We were ready! We had a crib set up and everything! We were ready than ever! Why take it all away now? We only had six months to go. But now we're back to square one, except this time we can't even do anything because Kally can't even get pregnant. So, what are we going to do? Get a surrogate? I don't think Kally would approve of that. Or would she? Maybe if I have her think long and hard about it she will, but I don't know, Kally gives up too quickly. But I don't know why I'm talking about her when I've already given up myself. Twice. This happened twice. I know it doesn't say much, but it hurts. It hurts very, very bad. Putting your heart and soul into something, but then realizing that it was all for nothing. It hurts, and it makes you angry. I'm knocked out of my thoughts when I hear, "Harry?" Kally woke up. "Yes baby?" I say. "Cuddle with me?" She asks. I nod, and take my shoes off, and then get in bed with her. "I'm sorry this is happening again, Harry." She whispers. "Don't worry baby, it's not your fault." I rub her back. "Then why do I feel like it was my responsibility to protect her from dying? I mean, I guess it was, but I feel like you hate me now because of it. I tried doing this whole pregnancy thing right, Harry, I really did, but I don't know what I did wrong." She says. "You did nothing wrong, babe. You just can't get pregnant." I try to swallow, but it's hard again. "I-I know." I hear her sniff, then feel wetness on my shirt. She's now crying. "Babe, I didn't mean to make you cry." I whisper. "I know you didn't, I just feel so guilty and it hurts to know that we basically have to give up now." She sniffs. "No we don't baby. We can get a surrogate." I say, hoping that she would give in. "I know, but it's not me holding it. It's a total stranger and it hurts!"