I Fell Inlove with the Devil

Chapter 1-Nightmare

"Your nightmares follow you like a shadow, forever."
                 
        - Aleksandar Hemon, The Lazarus Project

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Irina's POV

Cold.

Dark.

Death.

That's probably the three things that keeps running on my mind now. Hindi ko alam kung saang lugar ako eksakto pero pakiramdam ko sinasakal ako dahil masikip ang paligid.

I felt like I'm deep down on a pit of hell. Underneath the ground. Bakit ako nandito?

"I'm sorry. But that's the only thing I could do to save you from my allies."

"I love you Irina."

What? Who the hell is that?

Sinubukan kong sumigaw at humingi ng tulong. Pero walang nakakarinig sakin. Bakit ako nandito? Anong kasalanan ko? Kakasigaw ko ay unti-unting umiinit ang paligid dahilan para mawalan ng hangin sa loob. Fuck! I c-can't breath!

"T-tulong! Tulungan n-niyo ko!" mahinang daing ko. But as expected, no one listens, no one responds.

"P-please don't b-bury me alive." mahinang daing ko. Air. Please I can't breath. It's killing me.

I could feel my sweat dripping out of my forehead. My heart was racing fast inside my chest. The blood was pulsing fast and hot through my veins. It's killing me as hell.

Until I was finally blinded by the darkness.

Silence.

Angels and devils
Fight over me
Take me to heaven
Wake me up from this dream~

*KRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNGGGGGG!!*

Napabalikwas ako ng bangon. Ahh bangungot na naman. Napasapo ako sa ulo ko. I don't know what those nightmares are about but seriously they're hunting me to death. Gabi-gabi, simula nung nag-7 ako. Ganyan ang panaginip ko palagi. Iba't-ibang scenarios. Pero iisa lang yung subject sa panaginip kong yon.

Yung lalaki.

I don't know who that guy is. Or what's his part into my past or present life but it gives me chills everytime I remember him and everything he's saying into my dream. It's weird and somehow chaotic.

"IRINA ANAK! ANO NA MAGA-ALAS SYETE NA NAMAN! MALELATE KA NA NAMAN SA KLASE MO JUSKO KANG BATA KA!" halos mahulog ako sa higaan ko ng biglang sumulpot si mama sa pinto at pinagsisigawan ako. Orayt SONA na naman ni ina.

"Oona na ma bababa na'ko." tinatamad kong sabi at inayos na ang kama ko. Naligo at bumaba na.

Pagkababa ko sa kusina, handa na ang pagkain. Ako nalang ang inaantay. Gatas, itlog, bacon, fried rice. Oha sarap ng almusal. Kumuha nako ng pagkain ko at nagsimula nang kumain.

"Anak birthday mo na bukas ah anong gusto mo?" nakangiting bati saakin ni mama.

Yeah oo nga pala. It's my 18th birthday tomorrow. As usual, nothing's special. I just want my dad to come back.

Simula kasi nung bata ako hindi ko naramdaman ang pagmamahal ng isang ama. Yes I know my father. Atleast I had a chance to meet him. But something happened which causes him to disappear without any explanations. Sabi ni mama balang araw maiintindihan ko din daw. Kelan kaya yung araw na yon? Hanggang kelan pako magaantay?

I would be completely happy if dad comes back. Yung mabuo kami nina mama. That would be the best birthday gift ever.

"Nak." napatingala ako kay mama. Siguro kasi antagal kong sumagot sa tanong niya. I looked at her as if she know what's running on my mind already.