Baby Can I Upgrade You?

13. Confessions

Imani

"Imaniiiiiii....Imaaaaaaani....Imaniiiii!" Candice loudly sing-songs her way into my office and I roll my eyes at her quirky habit. What happened to just knocking at the door? She struts into my office and plops down into a chair, scowling at me. What have I done now?

"Uh hello to you to Candi." I greet her cautiously wondering what this unexpected visit could be about.

"Hello? Is that all you have to say to your bestest friend in the whole wide world after neglecting her for three blessed months?!" Candi whines slumping in her seat with that puppy dog face I find hard to resist.  She is so dramatic! It's true we haven't seen each other much in a while and I do feel guilty about it, but I haven't not seen her in three months.

"Aww baby I'm sorry." I come around my desk to give Candi a big hug, smothering her with my love. "I didn't mean to neglect you, it's just that JJ is quite the force of nature and has taken over every spare minute I have. I'm sorry."

Candi giggles in my embrace and I pull back to see a giant grin on her face. "Girl I can't even be mad, I'm the one who wanted you to get dicked down right! I just didn't consider that the dick game could be so good that I'd see you even less." Though she speaks with a smile her words make my heart twinge and I want to make it up to her.

"I'm so sorry Can Can. You're my girl and no dick, no matter how good should come between us. I'm going to do better, starting right now!" I proclaim, pulling her out of her seat for a long overdue girls lunch.

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"Girl I was hella sore the next day and I tried to take it like a champ but that boy got me so raw I couldn't even take a finger!" I whisper yell across the table at Candi while she sputters, mimosa dripping down her chin. Nice Candi.

I laugh at her reaction and she recovers taking another sip of her drink. "So what happened?" Candi asks leaning over the table, practically climbing across. This girl is too nosy for her own good!

I move over into the seat closest to her before we start drawing unnecessary attention. "Well he was a complete gentleman and ran me a hot bath to recover in. Girl this man stripped for me, nothing sleazy like his show, it was slow and sensual. JJ then joined me in the tub and gave me the best full body massage ever!" I finish with a sly look and we both erupt in excited giggles slapping our palms together. You'd swear we were teenage girls sharing our first kiss stories for the first time.

"Nini you hit the jackpot! Who knew that dirty stripper could be so sweet?!"

"I know right! But don't get it twisted, JJ's still nasty as hell. We had sex on his car bonnet in a club parking lot once." I drop my voice so probing ears won't hear the last part.

"Nini stop! You did not!" Candi gets in my face so we're nose to nose with a Cheshire cat grin.

"We did!" I snicker and wink at her. "It was amazing! It's always amazing...he makes me squirt!" I mumble out the last part, embarrassed at saying it out openly for the first time.

"Shut. The. Front. Door!" Candi loses it, shouting and curious eyes turn to our table. Fuck! I pinch her arm hard and she yelps in protest. "Ow! What was that for?!" She whisper yells with a pained scowl.

"For being a loud mouth! You got this whole damn restaurant wanting to know my business!" I scold her.

"Sorry! It's not everyday your bestfriend tells you that she's a freak who squirts!" Candi defends herself with a mischievous smirk. Why did I even tell her?

"I don't know why I tell you anything!" I roll my eyes and take a long drink of my vodka and lemonade.

"Cause you love me!" She sticks her tongue out at me childishly. I can't argue with that. "So we know the dick game is fire and he's a gentleman. Is he a keeper?" Candi asks suddenly serious.

I sit back and ponder her question. I know I've fallen for JJ but I don't know if I can say it out loud yet. I shrug at her and Candi gives me a hard look, letting me know she's not leaving without an answer. Fine! "Y-yea. I think he is. I love how he makes me feel and how he treats me. When we started I thought it was just a quick fling because of the age and lifestyle differences but the longer we're together the more I see him in my future." I finish with a satisfied sigh, glad to have finally confessed my feelings.

"Awww you really like this guy!" Candi coos at me, pulling me into a hug. "Have you told him?" She asks into my hair.

"N-no. It's too soon. I don't want to mess things up." I quickly explain away my cowardice.

"You can't mess it up if it's meant to be Nini. Let the man know how you feel.  If he feels the same great, if he doesn't then at least you know and you won't waste your time." She reassures me and I mull over her words.

"I'll think about it."

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(Say Yes - Floetry)
All you gotta do is say yes
Don't deny what you feel
Let me undress you, baby;
Open up your mind and express

I sit atop JJ straddling his slim hips with him buried deep inside me. I rock back and forth slowly to the music with my hands on his hard chest, looking deeply into his beautiful hazel eyes. Tonight feels different. Having accepted my feelings for the man filling both my body and heart, each stroke embedding him deeper and deeper into my soul. This is no longer just sex but I'm making love to this man and I hope he can feel and understand the difference. I slowly rock us into blissful ecstasy and this orgams touches me to my very core. I'm ready...

JJ's hand slowly trails up and down my naked back as we lay naked with our bodies intertwined into one. A content smile spreads across my face and I slowly open my eyes to look up at his handsome face. I take in all of JJ's  features and I imprint his beauty into my brain. I am so lucky. I slowly run my hand up from his ridged abs to his strong jaw. I caress his stubbled skin and he looks down at me with a peaceful smile. I want to always be the reason for that smile. I shift so I can better look at his face and JJ shifts his arm around my waist, lifting me so we're face-to-face. I'm practically laying on to of him and I revel at the feeling of our skin being plastered together so intimately. It feels right.

I'm going to do it! I give myself a final push and I open my mouth to speak. "JJ...I-I...You s-see" I stumble over my words, trying to find the right ones to express myself.

"What is it baby? Don't tell me I still make you nervous." He jokes, winking at me with a chuckle.

I laugh too and the sound of his laughter evaporates my nerves. JJ always knows what to say. It's now or never. "JJ, I think I love you." I blurt out quickly and search his face for a reaction. He is stone face for the longest time and I start to think I've made a huge mistake. I squirm uncomfortably, trying to get off him but then JJ suddenly attacks me lips with a hungry kiss. I am taken aback and almost want to stop to get a verbal answer but I decide to take his reaction as physical confirmation.

He loves me too...