Erasure

4

There was an uncomfortable silence that came over us for a couple of seconds before he just suddenly pulled me into a hug. I froze for a tiny bit, obviously confused, because he has never hugged me before. I finally relaxed into it and wrapped my arms around him. I could suddenly feel my face get warmer. What in the world is happening to me? After what felt like minutes, he whispered "You'll remember, you'll be fine, I will still have you, I promise." I could tell he was trying to convince himself more than me as he tightened his hold on me and hid his face in my neck. And just with that, I could feel my heart racing faster than a Venom GT. "I hope so." I said before even thinking.

I need to get a handle on myself. After what seemed like forever, he slowly let go and he offered to walk me home but I declined as I wanted some time to myself. I started walking in the direction I needed when something Wendell said kept repeating in my head. "I will still have you." What does that even mean? Did I die and I somehow managed to forget that? Did I suddenly hate him? Why will no one tell me what the hell is or has already happened?!

I walked in and my mom was sitting on the couch, twiddling her thumbs. I've seen her nervous but never this nervous. "Mom, you okay?" I asked and I guess she never heard me walk in cause she got startled when I started talking to her. "Yeah, yeah. I'm fine. How are you?" She was talking fast and avoiding eye contact until she was asking about how I was. "I'm okay... I'll be in my room if you need me." She went back to fiddling with her hands as she just nodded. I slowly went to my room and just laid on my bed. I didn't even touch my phone even though it didn't stop buzzing. I hope I get answers tomorrow.