He was the one for me (Charlie Pace)

Chapter 10 - claire? Is that you?

I was walking across the beach to go visit Boone's memorial grave to be honest I think I visit it more than Shannon. I looked out to see the waves coming in. Recently a while back Michael, Jinn and Sawyer built a raft to get off of the island. Sun was with me walking too she can only speak a little bit of English only her husband hasn't really talked to her after a big outburst. 'Are...uh... You okay?' She asked knowing something was up.

'Um... Yeah I'm fine' I shrugged. 'It's just more and more people are going missing or....' I couldn't say the word so I pointed at Boone's little grave. 'There's less and less of us everyday' I admitted she realised this too. 'Do you ever think that Jinn might not come back?' I asked her.

'Sometimes.... I... Uh... Doubt it but he's my husband... And I know he's still alive' she fiddled with her wedding ring. 'I love him...' She nodded. 'And I know he'll come back for us' she smiled and looked down at her feet. I couldn't help it but I looked down to see a bottle... The same bottle we sent with the ship.

'That's our messages' I pointed out as she picked it up. Her face dropped and looked out to sea. 'Sun I'm sorry' I looked at her. 'I don't know what to say' I hesitated.

'My husband is still alive...' She said. 'I can feel it' she fiddled with her wedding ring again. She cuddled the bottle so I left her too it. 'Maybe we should bury this' she thought.

'Yeah...' I smiled although I was very awkward in these situations. 'I'm gonna go on up and see Boone' I shook a gesture and waved her off.

I sat by the cross and starred at it. 'Why'd you have to leave so soon buddy?' I sighed. 'I miss you everyday' I nodded. 'Miss the way you always say everything's gonna be fine...' I breathed out slowly trying to hold back the tears. 'Without you the islands making me go crazy' I explained. 'It's not the same without you' I nodded seeing Charlie walk on up. He sat by me and held my hand tightly. 'It's hard to see someone close just go' I covered my mouth trying to hold my self together. 'I just wish you were still here' I broke out.

Charlie cuddled and rocked me. 'He's in a better place now april' he comforted me. 'I'll look after her' he promised Boone. 'I'm here for her' I looked up to see him smiling. 'You'll get through this' he patted my hand.

'I bonded with him more than anyone' the minute I said this... Charlie's face fell.

'Listen I'm sorry' he finally said. 'For everything with Claire' he made his point clear.

'No I didn't mean it like that Charlie i_'

'And I still haven't apologised' he interrupted me. 'Claire's probably long gone right' he still couldn't bare the fact that she was gone. 'I've moved on and I'm apologising because I was a total asshole' he raised his hands. 'Can we just put it behind us?' He asked.

'Yeah' I wiped my tears. 'Now that Boone's gone you're all I have left' I said looking at him. 'Did you know his sister hardly comes up here to pay her respects?' I questioned.

'Really?' He was surprised.

'I'm the only one that comes up here every so often' I nodded assuringly.

'Maybe you feel like it's your fault?' He suggested. 'But it's not' he instantly said after it.

'Why wasn't Shannon around to save him I just don't understand?' I shook my head in disappointment.

'It's no ones fault' Charlie stood up. 'If anyone it was Boone's for hanging over the edge of a cliff...' He sighed.

'He was helping us...' I defended. 'If it wasn't for him or Locke we wouldn't have found a plane full of heroin in the middle of nowhere...' He turned and instantly looked like he was interested.