The Johnson Brothers

Chapter 16

I asked Casey and the boys to come over to watch Chetly for a couple of hours so Laura and I could go shopping for a few bits like clothes, good and baby milk as I bottle feed him.
"Are you sure you're gonna be ok? His bottles are in the cupboard or steriliser, dummy's are in the pots in my room, it's a bit of a mess but I'll clean that in a bit, powder for his bottles is by the bottles in the cupboard and.." I was cut off my Casey "Peyton, I've got it ok! Calm down" he says smiling walking over to the sofa and sits down "Ok! Bye" I say kissing Chetly's head and grab my bag and phone "phone me if you need me" I say widening my eyes "Go!" Casey points to the door.

***2 hours later***
We walk through the front door and I look to see the boys playing FIFA with Laura's boyfriend Leon and look at Casey who has Chetly sleeping on his chest. He looks up and smiles and I return it. Once we have put everything away we sit down to join the bigs, I sit by Casey and it's very awkward but it shouldn't be.
"I'm gonna go clean my room, do you want me to take him and put him in bed?" I ask sitting up
"No, I'll come up and help" he says passing the controller to Chris and stands up.
Once we get upstairs he places Chetly in bed careful not to wake him and he starts to make my bed,
"Mascara stains? Have you been crying yourself to sleep?" He asks pointing to my pillow "no, I'm tired. I haven't had time to take my make up off that's all" I say correcting him "you know, if you're upset, you can tell me" he smiles and carries on making my bed, I just nod and start folding up my clothes. Once we are finished we out the baby monitor on and walk downstairs. Chetly slept for a straight 2 hours before screaming the house down, I grab him form upstairs, change him and put on a 'Tiny Kick' baby grow a fan had sent me in the post, I walk downstairs with him in my arms and walk into the kitchen wiping my eyes as I'm very tired, I then hear the door open and see Jake behind me "He still loves you, you know" he says, I shrug and ignore what he says "could you hold him a sec whilst I make him a bottle please?" I ask and hand him to Jake. "Change the subject if you want" he laughs "Jake! I don't think you understand. He finished with me and now I've got his friends telling me he still loves me. I still love him, like mad but I cannot play mind games. If he loves me he tells me off his own back" I say shaking the bottle taking Chetly and sitting on the chair placing Chetly on his back on my knees and start to feed him "Peyton, mum and dad wanted to know if you wanted to come over tomorrow for a bit, they want to see Chetly, and they miss you" my head shoots up after he finishes "Yeah, what time?" I say smiling
"I'll pick you up at about 11?" He smiles and I nod. I cross my legs and put Chetly lying on them side ways and soon fall asleep.
I wake up to Chetly rolling off my legs and I jump but see James holding him and see that Casey was about to pick my up "what time is it?" I ask closing my eyes again "11, come one" he picks me up and carries me upstairs, James following with Chetly. He lays me in bed and James lays Chetly down too "wait! Case! Stay here tonight, please" I watch James leave and Casey sits on the bed and I sit up, "Pey, we aren't together anymore" he says trailing off "yeah. Who's fault is that. Before I lied. I do cry myself to sleep, every night since the day you left me. You happy? You broke me. It was horrible Casey. I never came out the house for a month" I say, tears threatening to spill "I still love you" he says wiping my eyes "So why finish with me?"
"Me going on tour and getting too close. I wouldn't be able to cope" he says standing to and walking out.